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When I Was A Kid
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Straight Female / 24
I'm All Grown Up Now, Proud To Say Only A 'man' Has Had Me
My parents are foreign service. When I was fifteen we were in a 'banana republic'. Along with other diplomatic kids, I went to an exclusive private school. There was a boy there, Alfredo, who was a year older. But we weren't allowed together, because I was 'leaving' and he was 'staying'.
There was a party, my first boy girl party, and some girls were getting their first finger, and others their first penis. I was in the kitchen with the other goody two shoes. Alfredo was upset with me, why wasn't I with him getting fingered? This wasn't make believe, this party was for the girls to loose their virginity.
I asked one of the local girls, she said that Alfredo had a bet with the other boys, he would give me 'the shot against virginity'. Her thoughts were simple, why would we 'give' it away so some kid could brag about it. If we were going to give it away, give it to a 'man', not some teenager.
So, that party was where I made a pinky promise with two other girls, we would hold out for a 'man' but never a teenager. And that's why, we 'let' our drivers to get us across the finish line. At least I believed they had also 'done' it. My driver, Horacio, was thirty five, ex military, who liked 'little girls'. I qualified for that purpose, and he was all man about it. Once was not enough, and I wasn't quiet about it. My friend let someone know about it and Horacio was fired, and I was sent to live with my grandmother.
Not pregnant was the best news ever, but familywise I never lived down the shame of my behavior, or getting that man fired. It was 'obvious' that it was 'me', that initiated that behavior, a maid testified to it.
As a non virgin, I've had to 'settle' for a 'divorced' man after college. But I emphasize 'man', not some college kid. He is thirty seven and his ex is a lawyer. She thinks I'm a gold digger. What little gold she left him with.
There was a party, my first boy girl party, and some girls were getting their first finger, and others their first penis. I was in the kitchen with the other goody two shoes. Alfredo was upset with me, why wasn't I with him getting fingered? This wasn't make believe, this party was for the girls to loose their virginity.
I asked one of the local girls, she said that Alfredo had a bet with the other boys, he would give me 'the shot against virginity'. Her thoughts were simple, why would we 'give' it away so some kid could brag about it. If we were going to give it away, give it to a 'man', not some teenager.
So, that party was where I made a pinky promise with two other girls, we would hold out for a 'man' but never a teenager. And that's why, we 'let' our drivers to get us across the finish line. At least I believed they had also 'done' it. My driver, Horacio, was thirty five, ex military, who liked 'little girls'. I qualified for that purpose, and he was all man about it. Once was not enough, and I wasn't quiet about it. My friend let someone know about it and Horacio was fired, and I was sent to live with my grandmother.
Not pregnant was the best news ever, but familywise I never lived down the shame of my behavior, or getting that man fired. It was 'obvious' that it was 'me', that initiated that behavior, a maid testified to it.
As a non virgin, I've had to 'settle' for a 'divorced' man after college. But I emphasize 'man', not some college kid. He is thirty seven and his ex is a lawyer. She thinks I'm a gold digger. What little gold she left him with.
