Thought I Was Gay

When I was 16 I was confused and thought I was gay. Way worried about being outed at school so I went online and found an older male. He was 30 and like the fact I was young. For a couple of weeks I let him pick me up, drive me to a secluded spot, and I gave him blow jobs. He had a nice 8 inch cock and I really liked sucking it. After I got him off I would be so horny I would jack myself off as he touched and kissed me.
The day came when he wanted to fuck me. We got in the back seat of his SUV. We stripped down and I sucked him hard as he fingered lube in my butt hole. He put me face down, gripped my shoulders as he mounted me. G-D it hurt as he pushed inside me! To describe it, he reamed my asshole! 8 inches fucking me hard. The more I screamed and squirmed, the harder he fucked and seemed to enjoy it. He finally creamed me and let me up. I was sore for days. Pretty much decided gay was not for me.