Cuckold, Hotwifing, Open Marriage

I'm lucky, in my opinion, my husband is very open minded. He allows me to be very.... free, sexually. It is a trade off, maybe partnership is a better description. I enjoy the romantic, call it fantasy of finding or experiencing that euphoria of a first date, first connection and first kiss. And who am i kidding the first time i get a hold of a stranger's cock. Mmmmm. If i had it my way, I would be free to go on a couple dates with anyone i choose and fuck them and even spend the night. I love passionate morning sex after getting pounded the night before.

My husband prefers we meet one or two guys, he doesn't care if they come to our hotel room and find me naked ready to pull out their cocks. He wants new guys each time. Black guys are at the top of his list. He cares about the size of their dicks much more than I do. I'm most excited when i find an Attractive, young guy, an older businessman wearing a suit with his cock online clearly in view and sometimes a buff guy with tats. Maybe due to black guys being the most common when my hubby picks. That's not really an attribute I seek out. If I see a black guy that turns me on, of course. My husband will often put BBC as the primary search.

That was a lot, much more than I anticipated in just the back story. I was going to use this as a complaint session with hopes of feedback from women with similar experiences.

Where I end up is being very..... slutty to fulfill my husband's needs as a cuckold. And then hoping the trade off is, I get to enjoy the things that i truly like fun time to time. To backup just a bit. I love getting fucked, i prefer really kinky with one guy and my hubby, but I love DP getting flipped over missionary and getting my ass pounded after two guys have used my body. Orgazmic inducing squirt fest for me. Dirty girl cum whore has its place as well. But I really like the power of fucking my friend's husbands, using sex as a power move with married co-workers and the ultimate thing I enjoy is just meeting someone, strike up a physical relationship. One day or a few months. Example, I met an Uber driver. I might have put on a show for him in the back seat. I was like "Oh my gosh, no is an exceptable answer. Would you mind if i change my top in the backseat?" He said yes, and I i fumbled around topless his eyes locked on my beasts as I tried to remove the tags from my blouse. We stopped for lunch, I kissed him and got in the front seat. I asked for One more detour through the park and i sucked his cock as we drove. He dropped me off at my house. I mean he had the address anyway. I told him "I'm a cheater, please don't judge or show up un-announced." We met 2 more times and it was over, for now. Some guys go away for a while and then reach out when they need to. For the most part, the sex I choose is more romantic, I don't share details or in the case of the Uber driver, I didn't tell hubby.
When hubby picks his cock is locked up, he might have a buttplug in. Wearing panties and we are laughing at him and the size of his "tiny" cock.

An I a one off or are other couples like us?