It's Only A Matter Of Time Now, And He Will Make Me A Mother

I am definitely not the only lesbian who has a male lover. I wasn't looking, but he found me and put me under his spell. The sex is sex, but what holds me is much beyond sex. I cannot hurt him or displease him. I'm captured. In a way, it is like pushing your father out of your life. Impossible.

He understands my lesbian nature and has never requested I leave it. I'm 32 now, and he's requested that I have a child for him. I don't know that he's blackmailing me emotionally, I can't displease him. I'm off of everything, everything. I'm now playing Russian roulette when I see him.