I Am A Jerk

34 male, my wife is 33. Second marriage for both of us. From my wife and her family I knew her first husband was abusive but I have never asked her to go into detail. Anyway, my wife has a great ass! Like J-Lo booty and since day one I have wanted to fuck her in the ass. BAD! She always refused. A few days ago we actually got into an argument about it. In the middle of the fight she dug into a closet and pulled a box out. She rummaged through it until she pulled out an envelope and handed it to me. It contained naked pictures of her first husband. JESUS!! His cock was so big I thought the pictures were fake. She said "11 inches and thats why I don't do anal". Apparently he drank a lot and when he got angry he would punish her by holding her down and r****g her in the ass. She even had to visit the hospital a couple of times after the incidents. Now I feel bad I pressured her like that.