Bi-Sexual Male / 44
Work Frustration
I had an emotional affair with a woman I worked with in a school. It was a lot of fun and also fucked my head up a lot. I regret it, but wouldn’t change it either. She’s left the school now. I think I’m part of the reason she left. I’ve always sort of fallen for girls easily. Not just like a crush, I get emotionally invested to them so easily.
There’s another coworker now who I’m invested in now, we text, I give her emotional support when she needs it. We heart each others messages. I don’t know if she feels the same as me, but it sort of feels similar to the last one. Only this time I want to make the 1st move and see if she’s feeling it too. But that’s what ended up messing with me last time and I don’t want to do that to her. She’s a sweet person and I know it would fuck with her. And if she didn’t reciprocate, it would be really bad. It’s a small school in a small town. It would be bad is she did as well, it didn’t go well last time. The only reason things didn’t get physical was because her friend cooled us down.
Another strange aspect to this is the teacher in our room. He’s a gay male and I know he feels like this about me. He’s told other people and it’s gotten back to me. I honestly like the attention. But I’m not attracted to him. But I I find myself wanting to give him teases and I think about what it might be like to sleep with him. I don’t want to be penetrated by him though, but I do wonder what it would feel like to be held and hugged by him and touched.
The three of us are all good friends. I sort of wish I could have a threesome with them. It’s messed up in my head. I’m emotionally bonded with these people and my brain wants intimacy with them so much. My wife calls them my work wife and my work husband. I don’t think she really suspects how deep my feelings go. Sometimes I have fantasies of a threesome with the teacher and my wife. He’s not attracted to women at all, but I think he would enjoy the experience anyway, and the thought of him fucking my wife turns me on. He’s never been with a woman, and he doesn’t intimidate me the way a straight man would. I don’t know why but the thought of my wife letting him test the waters on her excites me. The thought of my wife and him enjoying it turns me on too. But the thought of the woman and my wife intimidates me. I want her for myself. I really do care for her.
Nobody knows how messed up my head really is, I just crave intimacy so much.
There’s another coworker now who I’m invested in now, we text, I give her emotional support when she needs it. We heart each others messages. I don’t know if she feels the same as me, but it sort of feels similar to the last one. Only this time I want to make the 1st move and see if she’s feeling it too. But that’s what ended up messing with me last time and I don’t want to do that to her. She’s a sweet person and I know it would fuck with her. And if she didn’t reciprocate, it would be really bad. It’s a small school in a small town. It would be bad is she did as well, it didn’t go well last time. The only reason things didn’t get physical was because her friend cooled us down.
Another strange aspect to this is the teacher in our room. He’s a gay male and I know he feels like this about me. He’s told other people and it’s gotten back to me. I honestly like the attention. But I’m not attracted to him. But I I find myself wanting to give him teases and I think about what it might be like to sleep with him. I don’t want to be penetrated by him though, but I do wonder what it would feel like to be held and hugged by him and touched.
The three of us are all good friends. I sort of wish I could have a threesome with them. It’s messed up in my head. I’m emotionally bonded with these people and my brain wants intimacy with them so much. My wife calls them my work wife and my work husband. I don’t think she really suspects how deep my feelings go. Sometimes I have fantasies of a threesome with the teacher and my wife. He’s not attracted to women at all, but I think he would enjoy the experience anyway, and the thought of him fucking my wife turns me on. He’s never been with a woman, and he doesn’t intimidate me the way a straight man would. I don’t know why but the thought of my wife letting him test the waters on her excites me. The thought of my wife and him enjoying it turns me on too. But the thought of the woman and my wife intimidates me. I want her for myself. I really do care for her.
Nobody knows how messed up my head really is, I just crave intimacy so much.
