I am in a very happy relationship, but I keep having dreams about my ex-boyfriend. We were together for four years (part of high school and halfway through college.) Our break up was very pointless and still confusing to this day. Everybody thought we were going to get married. We were THAT couple. I confess, deep down, I don't think I could ever love somebody like I did him. We almost got back together many times over the years, and the last time was right before I met my current boyfriend. I guess I am just scared that the same thing would happen again, because I had been so broken hearted the first time. It was one of the lowest points of my life, and I am a strong person. In the end I had to stop talking to him, and leave it at that. It just wasn't healthy to keep talking to him while I had met someone else; we couldn't be friends because it'd be too painful. He didn't understand why I wouldn't answer his calls or emails, but I just couldn't do it. I can't even explain it. It's like I want to, but I feel it could never be again. I confess though that I feel like what we had was something indescribeable in terms of love. Maybe even the only time I have ever truly BEEN in love. I know I have to move on, but I can't forget him.