My roommate and I have known each other for 6 years, since going to a christian college together. She's my best friend. We know everything about each other. She's going through some complications with her boyfriend of 5 years, still a virgin and as far as I know, never put serious thought to being with a female. Myself on the other hand have been with several men, and once did a 3some with a friend and her husband for his birthday. My roommate and I have now purchased a house together and joke about being with each other for life, and our future husbands will just learn to live with each other too. Others joke about her and I being a couple. More and more I watch her with longing eyes. She's beautiful, curvy in the right places, the lead in our friendship (which I like), and I trust her. She is after all my best friend. I want to touch her, hold her, have her hold me. I want to kiss her lips grab her butt and hold her close. If I've had a bad day at work and tell her I need a hug when I come home, its late and often she's already prepared for bed, and taken off her bra. She "warns" me... I dont have a bra on... but I don't care, they feel so good. I don't know that I'd consider myself bi or lesbian... all I know is that I love my best friend, and I've exhausted every typical way of showing it. I want to go farther. I wish I could love my best friend in a deeper way, but she would never accept that, and I treasure her too much to ever let her know this. I want to be with my best friend, but I can't.