I'm a Neurologist, and am ok with my job, but it's never what I wanted.

Ever since I was very young, I had wanted to be a detective. Something about the intrigue, the poking around for not only the correct pieces, but where they fit, and the challenge of pitting my mind against another's, fascinated me.

I have been too afraid to pursue it, though. Not of the threat of injury or death, but of my potential. I have always been a bit criminally minded I worry that knowing how the system works, it's ins and outs, and what has and hasn't worked with others, would prove too tempting to test my theories as to how to subvert it- more out of an almost proud curiosity.

There is something I am even more apprehensive of, though. I fear that at some point, I would have to fight or shoot to protect myself or someone else. I worry that I might hurt someone, and like it. I fear that I may end up killing someone, and discover I enjoy doing so.