My identical twin brother and I have been having sex with each other since we were 14, about 12 years. It started after we heard some schoolmates talking about hand jobs. We were curious so we gave each other one. After that we just started experimenting. We've both had girlfriends over the years, but never anything serious. After college we moved in together, and we fuck every now and then.

I feel horrible and disgusting about it once in awhile, and get shot-faced and end up in bed with him again. For the last few years I've developed feelings for him more than just brotherly love. I rally think I'm falling crazy in love with him and it scares the shot out of me. I've never slept with another guy. I don't think of them that way. But he's gorgeous. I love kissing him, touching his beautiful cock.

It kills me to see him with girls. I haven't wanted to sleep with anyone else in over a year. I'm dying. I hate that I love him so fucking much. I feel sick but I can't help it. I don't know what to do. I tried moving out and I almost had a nervous breakdown for fuck sakes.
What the fuck am I supposed to do with this sick arse shit?!