Okay, so I haven't even been married one year yet and my husband & I never have sex! We don't see eye-to-eye on much & we are intellectually, two different people!

He goes out of town occasionally and this last time, he was gone for about 2.5 weeks. Well one night I got really bored & drunk all by myself & called up my friend and talked her into going to a local bar!
We meet up there & she had her friend (guy) who also brought along a friend (guy)..so that was fine wth me..no problem, right!?

We all had drinks, shot pool, talked and laughed. As the night progressed, I found myself highly attracted to one of the men, not only physically but emotionally & intellectually as well.. In fact, I wanted him...right then & there! I didn't care if anyone saw or not! The chemstry was undeniable! I fed him olives with my mouth, which I hear is very pouty, full & sexy! And imagined what it would feel like to feel his cock inside my mouth & pussy! We continued to flirt & play for the rest of the time we were at the bar. Turns out, I end up having to take him to his car, which I was more than happy to do!

Well as you probably guessed, I didn't go home, after taking him to his car, I totally went to his place..happily!!!! We had an amazing night of foreplay & sex.. not that I haven't had good sex before, but it was just totally different with him! I felt more!!!! I was more stimulated than I'd ever been in my whole life! I think because he stimulated my mind as well as my body! Every inch of my skin adored his every lick, touch, kiss.. my body had never wanted or appreciated another human being like that before then!! I liked, no, *loved everything he did to me! To put it mildly, he turned me out! We had sex from 2:30 am until the sun came up.. 3 times to be exact! It was amazing!

So, the next morning...awkward right?! Wrong! We acted as if we had known each other for years! As I was about to leave, I wrote his name on his glass storm door and as soon as it disappeared, I said, "awe, it's gone!" and he blew on it, pauses for a slight moment and says, "no it's not!" and just looks at me with this look that I cannot put into words, but it made me feel safe, calm, happy, sexy and amazing! So I am basically walking out of his door and I turn to say, "I will be back!" Little did I know~

We met up that next weekend during the day, at his apartment! We just talked and casually flirted and enjoyed each other's company! But no sex, I couldn't stay long! BUT, that night, I txt'd him and long story short..I ended up at his apartment, once again! We had amazingly great sex, again!

I started developing strong feelings for him and I am pretty sure he had strong feelings for me as well! I couldn't imagine not being able to have him in my life! Scary!! But we both have morals & knew that what we had done/been doing, had to come to an end! The boundaries our 'situation' created were very hard to deal with! I wanted to be with him & only him as much as possible! Which was a problem!

We only had a few more encounters before it was over. Each time we had sex it got better & better! I can only IMAGINE how great the sex would be now! MMMMMM!!!!!

It's been 3 weeks since we have seen each other. He is now in a 'relationship' with some troll looking chick... cannot understand how he went from this to that! Oh well! I just cannot imagine him enjoying someone else (completey) like he did me! Personality wise, physically, mentally, etc... I am pretty sure I rocked his socks as much as he rocked mine ;)

3 weeks have passed and I am still very upset & sad about losing him..which is odd for me, considering I only knew him for a month! I have the ability to cut off emotonal ties to people-- like turning off a light, it's that easy for me..usually! I cannot make sense out of any of this! The only thing I know 100% is that I felt ALIVE with him. He could make me happy just by looking at me! Regardless of what happens, I will eternally be grateful, to him, for showing me how life really could be, when you are with the right person!

I am in the process of deciding if I should divorce my husband or not! Obviously, I am not happy with my marraige, but it could be a 'phase'! Who knows??? But like I said, I do know that my lover made me feel better than any other person has ever made me feel in my entire life! That has to mean something!?!?

I still have a lot of love left in my heart for him and always will!!