I can't stand myself at all. I find I hate myself more and more everyday. I'm pathetic idiotic loser. I treat all the good people around me like shit. I don't know why anyone would want to be my friend.

I made a good friend who I just annoy all the time. I'm mean and rude to him, and he's just too nice. I have a lot of friends like that. I don't understand.

I wish my body would just give in and die. I don't have the will to live anymore. I'm pathetic and feel bad for anyone who has to put up with me.