I've been friend's with this guy named Mike since high school. Mike has two kids and a wife, and they've had many marriage problems, as she's been caught nearly cheating twice and he's threatened divorce on her both times. Mike loves to hang out, but I get the feeling his wife wants me. We were all at a club last night watching a local musician we know, and at one point, the guy said some lyrics along the lines of "if I wasn't fucking them I'd be fucking with you", at which point Mike's wife started to stare me down for three minutes until I walked off to go smoke. When we got back home, Mike put their inflatable mattress in the living room (where I usually sleep), and I can only assume he knew something was going on. After they went to sleep, I did something really fucked up. I was in the bathroom getting ready to take a shower when I noticed her outfit lying on the ground (a sort of halter top with a bra built into it). Now, I'm a 19 year old virgin, and when I saw that, something took over me and I picked up the outfit off the ground, rubbed the bra area, and started masturbating, but I made sure not to get anything on the top. That night I couldn't get to sleep and I started shaking and shit (my buzz only made it worse), cuz I don't normally do shit like that, I always have a grip and I've touched bras before with ex girlfriends. Now though, I'm sitting here sobering up feeling guilty about what I did. Like I'm trying to rationalize it, I didn't do anything with her directly and never will (cuz of the kids), but if I could something that fucked up, how can I trust myself if she did come on to me? On one hand, Mike treats her like shit, so that curbs some of the guilt. On the other hand, I think I should say something, like let him know what happened and tell him I'm staying away for a while till I find a girl or something, but I know either way, he'll go nuts. I'm not saying I blame him though, I readily admit it was kind of fucked up. But I don't know, maybe it was normal. Maybe it was just all that sexual tension refusing to stay locked in. The only thing calming me down is the fact that she's gotten close to me before in the past at least three times (when Mike was gone), but I've left the house everytime. Yeah, my morals are really fucked, I know, I leave when it can break up a family but I masturbate when it's just her clothes with no consequences. Idk. I wanna face this but not at the risk of making more problems in their marriage. I'm not gonna be the one that leads to them splitting. But maybe someone on here has some better advice, I sure as hell don't know what to think.