When I was 17, I was at a family gathering at an aunt's house, and the topic of the night was my cousin's coming out of the closet. He was also 17. While everyone was in the living room, we went into one of the bedrooms and he explained to me that he'd been gay all his life. I couldn't believe it, but then again, he was always kind of feminine so it kind of made sense. (We had watched straight porn before as curious teenagers do, and one time, I brought a lesbian porn tape to his house and he was like, "there's no dicks?")

So I was asking him questions on why he is gay. He even called his gay lover using the phone in the room so I could hear him. It was some older married man who sounded like a perv. As we talked, he got up and sat next to me on the bed, and we continued talking. He then started to rub my crotch and asked me, "Does that feel good?" I didn't know what to say. He opened the zipper of my pants and took out my cock through my briefs and my dick was hard! He bent over and started sucking my dick. There was a mirror in the room and I stared at myself and my cousin sucking my dick and wondering, "What the hell is going on?!" I was frozen with shock.

He apologized for doing that. I didn't know what to think on the drive home. At another family gathering, he did the same thing (rubbing my crotch) after showing me some gay pics on his computer. He asked if he could suck my dick. I said yes and he want down on me. He wanted to kiss but I didn't want to kiss him. I came in his mouth.

Now, I have an obsession with cock. I had no gay thoughts before this happened, and now I think about dick all the time as an adult. The thought of sucking a dick gets me so horny. The thought of a guy being just as horny as I am and wanting to suck me off turns me on so much! I've sucked a few dicks and have been sucked by many men, mostly at adult video stores. I feel disgusted after sucking a guy's dick after coming but not so much when a guy sucks me off. I am now obsessed with transexuals. I am really attracted to women but like dick too. Tranny's are the best of both worlds I guess...