When I was at least 11 or 12...I don't remember when...I met someone online. At that time, I was easily manipulated and very vulnerable. It was an older man. He never sent me any pictures of him. I did. Too revealing than I should have. I sent him many naked pictures. At one point he had told me one of my pictures was his desktop background on his computer. Eventually, I had gotten extremely busy with school as I grew older. I forgot about him. I got a real-life boyfriend whom I am still with to this day. He knows about this story, too. One day this man messaged me. I told him I could never talk to him again because I didn't want to risk any trouble with my boyfriend or family. Oh boy, was he pissed. After this, we never talked again. It had never really occurred to me that him having my pictures was a problem until someone came and talked to the high school students about sexting/child pornography. It has always bothered me. I've tried everything to rid the guilt. At some points, the guilt literally eats me alive. I know it was wrong. I was a stupid, vulnerable, immature kid. I didn't know better. Wherever this man is now, I hope to God he's forgotten about me and erased those pictures. I hate this feeling. I feel like I am the only woman in this situation. But I just needed to get this off my chest. For good.
God Bless.