The reason I hate my neighbor is because of what she has caused me to become. I was always respectful of women but this girl has caused me to become a perv. She and her mother Madaline, have lived next door to me for over 4 years. I was friendly with the mother and knew for a long time that she and her daughter Lynn argued often and I could hear them yelling at times.

Lynn just turned 20 but from what I understand has had drug and alcohol problems since her early teens. Madaline has been living on a disability pension for many years and is confined to a wheelchair most of the time.

I'm 55, devorced for 10 years and have a son who lives with his mother in Ohio. I always cut Madelines grass and help her with minor repairs. She gave me a key to her house about two years ago and last year I began driving her to her friends condo every Friday evening and bringing her back home Sunday morning. She always asked me check up on Lynn and let her know if she was behaving herself. I would call Lynn asking if she was ok and she seemed to be doing well for awhile.

Then one Saturday night all the lights were on in the house and she wasn't answering my phone calls. Madaline tried calling her also and asked me to go over and see if Lynn was ok. I went into the livingroom calling to her but she didn't respond. I turned off some of the lights downstairs and went up the steps calling her name several times. When I got to her bedroom door she was laying naked in bed with all the lights on. It had been decades since I saw such a young beautiful body like hers and I just stood looking at every inch of her. I went back down stairs for a minute and called Madaline telling her Lynn was just sleeping and was ok. I went right back up and spent over an hour looking at her. I admit I also slowly spread her legs open and masturbated as I lusted over her body.

I am not sure if she was drunk or had taken some type of drug but she was completly unconcious. I turned off the bright lights before I went home only leaving a small lamp lit. When I saw Lynn the next day I told her, her mother was worried about her the night before but only mentioned I turned off the downstairs lights. It was only two weeks later on a Friday night well after I took Madaline to her friends place that I saw Lynn stumble into the house. It was after 2 am and I had sat watching for her to get home. I called on the phone twice and waited about an hour before I went over. The whole time trying to think of an explanation for doing so if Lynn was awake and alert. I did hollar out her name when I went in the front door but she never answered me. There were few lights on this time so I went up the steps not knowing what to expect.

When I got to her room the lamp was on and Lynn was sound asleep. I was so nervous about what I was doing I knocked on the door and called out her name again. I then turned on the ceiling light to make sure she wasn't awake. I was dissapointed that she wasn't naked this time but all she had on was a night shirt and panties. I was shaking as I did it but I pushed the night shirt up over her breasts and took off her panties. She stirred slightly a couple times but still never woke up. I touched her breasts at first then pushed her legs apart as far as I could. I only had shorts on this time and I took them off and touched her face, lips and hand with my penis. In the course of an hour or so I masturbated twice before leaving.

In the last 8 months I have done this 11 more times. four of those times she was already naked and twice only had panties on. Two months ago she was fully dressed when I went in. I was going to leave but instead litterly tried to wake her. When she didn't wake after me talking to her and shaking her shoulder, I went ahead and undressed her. When Madaline is home Lynn never does the drugs or drinks in front of her mother. I was dissapointed a few times when Madaline decided to stay home over the weekend. I talk to Lynn and Madaline everyday and I am positive that Lynn has no knowlege of what I have been doing. They both know my girfriend well and also know my son. I sit for hours sometimes watching for Lynn to come home. I can always tell when she is under the influence of something but am very careful when I go into the house. I always wait at least an hour or more and can usually tell when to go in just by the number of lights that are on. I wait at least 15 or 20 minutes, and call twice hoping she doesn't answer.

I don't know all the drugs she takes but one night there was crack on her night table. Another night there were some pills in a napkin but I don't know what they were. Her girlfriend drops her off most of the time and I am beginning to think Lynn is either gay or bisexual. She doesn't have a boyfriend right now but she has in the past. I can't beleive it myself that I have stooped to doing something like this. I'm addicted to it so badly I often tell my girlfriend I don't feel good or go out to dinner making sure I take her back to her apartment before 2 am. It's always between 3 and 5 am that I am in the house with Lynn. Sometimes I go with only my bathrobe on and other times just wearing gym shorts. In any event I am naked most of the time as well, have a perpettual erection and masturbate twice. I fondle her breasts more than ever and touch her vagina and have touched her anus several times. I do finger her and have penitrated her vagina slightly. A number of times she got a little wet but that was the extent of it. She never responds and hardly ever moves around. She seldom rolls over, but it does alarm me when she does because I imagine her waking up. I don't know what I would do if she did wake up and catch me doing all of this to her. As guilty as I feel I still plan on doing it. During the week I masturbate just thinking about it.

I have thought about taking pictures or videoing her but so far haven't sunk to that level. I like Lynn but I also hate her for being so pretty and sneaky about her drug use.