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Bi-Sexual Male / 48
So. Relationships-wise it's always girlfriends, but I've known from being a kid that I'm attracted by men. When I was 17 and at sixth form college I had a girlfriend and it was going ok. What I would get though is some pretty strong urges for some men. I don't mean, get horny, jerk off, forget about it. This would be three or four weeks of thinking about men. Usually older men, thirties, forties.
Thursdays i just had one half hour lesson and lately i'd taken to skipping it and going to the local pool. Well, that wasn't quite true. I'd actually started going to the pool two towns away. Why? To look at men. This was before the internet (you teenagers will never know how lucky you are), and i went to this pool as it had an open, shared male changing area. My local was all cubicles. I had this idea that i could check out some guys and then jerk off later. Wow, the effort we had to go to back then.
So, this day I go to the pool. I spend half an hour doing laps and then get out. There's a line of shower heads on the way to the changing area and I stopped under there before I got changed. Left my speedos on as like many teenagers i had a thing about my cock being too small (unfortunately I was right). While i was under the shower i looked to my right and there's a guy soaping himself up. He obviously hasn't got any cock hang ups as his is hanging out there proudly. He's about forty, gym body, dark hair on head, chest and stomach, then (as i make quick, furtive, darting glance checks) going down to quite a hairy groin area, water flattening it down and running off the end of his (lovely) cock. How I didn't get an instant hard on i will never know. As I keep checking him out secretly, he starts to soap up his cock and he seems to be lingering on it a bit too long. Is he getting a bit of a semi? I think he...oh shit he's caught me looking at him. eyes straight ahead now, finish shower in 0.5 seconds. Get out of there as fast as possible and back out on the street.
But here's the thing. As soon as i'm out of there i start to think. The more i think about it, the more I'm entertaining the idea that the lingering cock wash was for me to watch. Am i being stupid? Or was high-tailing it out of there the stupid thing that i'd done. The next few days it's my constant jerk off fantasy and it goes further in my mind than it had in the showers and that's for sure.
So, following Thursday where do I go. College? Don't think so. Local pool, maybe not. Same pool as last week, hell yes. And for some reason I'm careful that I get there at exactly the same time as the previous Thursday. Before I go, i'm certain i'm in for some fun. A week of jerking off has built these fantasies into the absolute certainty that this guy has been thinking about me all week and can't wait to try his luck again. As i get on the bus, I realise that this is what i've been doing to myself and I'm sort of laughing about my own naivety.
Back in the pool and guess what? He ain't there. What a fucking prick i am. I get into the laps and then as I stop for a breather I see him. I think i'm going to have a heart attack I'm so nervous as I stand at the edge trying to compose myself. After all, if he was here at this time last week, why wouldn't he be here again. doesn't mean anything. For christs sake don't stare at him again. He's probably married with two kids and likely to complain. After a bit I have a word with myself and decide to get out and go back to get changed. Still, i linger longer than necessary in the showers and after a couple of minutes, hang on who's this? There's six shower heads but he comes straight to the one next to me. Now that's not man etiquette. You should always pee or shower as far away as possible from the other guy in case he gets the wrong idea and assumes you are a dirty faggot. Everyone knows that, right?
He does his soaping up trick again and this time I am sure it's for me as he is definitely looking at me for longer each time. With a sudden surge of bravado I turn away from him so I'm facing the other way and roll my speedos off. I take some soap and start to do the same as him. Only, Mr. hang up that I am, I haven't got the nerve to turn and face him as i rub soap into my cock and balls. So, i reach behind and start to soap my lower back and buttocks. I'm thinking to myself that i probably look pretty good. I'm young, slim, quite sporty and...this is when i have a revelation...and I'm in a public shower area preening myself next to a guy i have probably got entirely the wrong idea about. Again I lose my bottle and i'm out of there double quick and into the changing area. Heart pumping fit to burst out of my chest and feeling sick to my stomach. Fortunately there's only two other guys in there so nobody to notice how flustered I am. So, the place being virtually empty and all, this is why it seems weird when the guy suddenly appears, puts his basket down on the bench right next to me, and starts to towel himself dry. At first he doesn't say anything, doesn't even seem to notice i'm there until he asks, right out of the blue 'Had a good swim today then?'
I know I answered him but i'd be lying if I said i can remember what it was. Same with the next couple of conversational gambits. I must have looked like the most stupid, awkward adolescent it was possible to meet. Gradually though, we get a fairly normal conversation going and then he asks me what I'm doing for the rest of the day, then before I can answer he asks if i fancy getting a coffee in the cafe upstairs and i (fucking adventurous), say ok.
now at the risk of repeating a whole load of shit about how scared I was, I have to say that i was finding it hard to concentrate on talking to him because my mind was racing with what ifs. Like for instance if somebody saw me having a coffee with this guy they wouldn't just completely fail to notice us, or assume he was my dad or uncle or something. No, they would just automatically brand me as, and publicly humiliate me as, a queer. What if he was a serial killer or a fag hater (take me home then beat the shit out of me - 'I saw you looking at my cock you fucking homo').
In the end we started talking about bands and he found a good pretext to invite me to his house to check out his collection (come back and look at my puppies little boy).
So after worrying about being seen getting into his car and again about being seen getting out and going into his house there we were, in his bedroom listening to music. He's lying on the bed talking and i'm staring intently at his collection facing the other way when i get ' Hey, come over here a minute', then 'that's it come on sit on the bed for a minute with me'
when I've looked back at the next bit I think he was really clever. Nobody had overtly said why we were here and no irrevocable line had yet been crossed. He could obviously see I was shitting myself and I think if he'd have got his cock out or said 'Suck my fucking dick' i might have lost it. Instead he just said quietly 'Take your t shirt off' and I did it. It wasn't sex, but once done there was obviously only one reason for him to ask and for me to have done it. Now some sort of line had been crossed, small but significant. He moved a little closer to me and then took me completely by surprise. All my jerk off fantasies about men had been sex. Jerking off, cock sucking, fucking etc. but what did he do? He just leaned in and started to kiss me. I had never even contemplated kissing a ..(continue confession)
Thursdays i just had one half hour lesson and lately i'd taken to skipping it and going to the local pool. Well, that wasn't quite true. I'd actually started going to the pool two towns away. Why? To look at men. This was before the internet (you teenagers will never know how lucky you are), and i went to this pool as it had an open, shared male changing area. My local was all cubicles. I had this idea that i could check out some guys and then jerk off later. Wow, the effort we had to go to back then.
So, this day I go to the pool. I spend half an hour doing laps and then get out. There's a line of shower heads on the way to the changing area and I stopped under there before I got changed. Left my speedos on as like many teenagers i had a thing about my cock being too small (unfortunately I was right). While i was under the shower i looked to my right and there's a guy soaping himself up. He obviously hasn't got any cock hang ups as his is hanging out there proudly. He's about forty, gym body, dark hair on head, chest and stomach, then (as i make quick, furtive, darting glance checks) going down to quite a hairy groin area, water flattening it down and running off the end of his (lovely) cock. How I didn't get an instant hard on i will never know. As I keep checking him out secretly, he starts to soap up his cock and he seems to be lingering on it a bit too long. Is he getting a bit of a semi? I think he...oh shit he's caught me looking at him. eyes straight ahead now, finish shower in 0.5 seconds. Get out of there as fast as possible and back out on the street.
But here's the thing. As soon as i'm out of there i start to think. The more i think about it, the more I'm entertaining the idea that the lingering cock wash was for me to watch. Am i being stupid? Or was high-tailing it out of there the stupid thing that i'd done. The next few days it's my constant jerk off fantasy and it goes further in my mind than it had in the showers and that's for sure.
So, following Thursday where do I go. College? Don't think so. Local pool, maybe not. Same pool as last week, hell yes. And for some reason I'm careful that I get there at exactly the same time as the previous Thursday. Before I go, i'm certain i'm in for some fun. A week of jerking off has built these fantasies into the absolute certainty that this guy has been thinking about me all week and can't wait to try his luck again. As i get on the bus, I realise that this is what i've been doing to myself and I'm sort of laughing about my own naivety.
Back in the pool and guess what? He ain't there. What a fucking prick i am. I get into the laps and then as I stop for a breather I see him. I think i'm going to have a heart attack I'm so nervous as I stand at the edge trying to compose myself. After all, if he was here at this time last week, why wouldn't he be here again. doesn't mean anything. For christs sake don't stare at him again. He's probably married with two kids and likely to complain. After a bit I have a word with myself and decide to get out and go back to get changed. Still, i linger longer than necessary in the showers and after a couple of minutes, hang on who's this? There's six shower heads but he comes straight to the one next to me. Now that's not man etiquette. You should always pee or shower as far away as possible from the other guy in case he gets the wrong idea and assumes you are a dirty faggot. Everyone knows that, right?
He does his soaping up trick again and this time I am sure it's for me as he is definitely looking at me for longer each time. With a sudden surge of bravado I turn away from him so I'm facing the other way and roll my speedos off. I take some soap and start to do the same as him. Only, Mr. hang up that I am, I haven't got the nerve to turn and face him as i rub soap into my cock and balls. So, i reach behind and start to soap my lower back and buttocks. I'm thinking to myself that i probably look pretty good. I'm young, slim, quite sporty and...this is when i have a revelation...and I'm in a public shower area preening myself next to a guy i have probably got entirely the wrong idea about. Again I lose my bottle and i'm out of there double quick and into the changing area. Heart pumping fit to burst out of my chest and feeling sick to my stomach. Fortunately there's only two other guys in there so nobody to notice how flustered I am. So, the place being virtually empty and all, this is why it seems weird when the guy suddenly appears, puts his basket down on the bench right next to me, and starts to towel himself dry. At first he doesn't say anything, doesn't even seem to notice i'm there until he asks, right out of the blue 'Had a good swim today then?'
I know I answered him but i'd be lying if I said i can remember what it was. Same with the next couple of conversational gambits. I must have looked like the most stupid, awkward adolescent it was possible to meet. Gradually though, we get a fairly normal conversation going and then he asks me what I'm doing for the rest of the day, then before I can answer he asks if i fancy getting a coffee in the cafe upstairs and i (fucking adventurous), say ok.
now at the risk of repeating a whole load of shit about how scared I was, I have to say that i was finding it hard to concentrate on talking to him because my mind was racing with what ifs. Like for instance if somebody saw me having a coffee with this guy they wouldn't just completely fail to notice us, or assume he was my dad or uncle or something. No, they would just automatically brand me as, and publicly humiliate me as, a queer. What if he was a serial killer or a fag hater (take me home then beat the shit out of me - 'I saw you looking at my cock you fucking homo').
In the end we started talking about bands and he found a good pretext to invite me to his house to check out his collection (come back and look at my puppies little boy).
So after worrying about being seen getting into his car and again about being seen getting out and going into his house there we were, in his bedroom listening to music. He's lying on the bed talking and i'm staring intently at his collection facing the other way when i get ' Hey, come over here a minute', then 'that's it come on sit on the bed for a minute with me'
when I've looked back at the next bit I think he was really clever. Nobody had overtly said why we were here and no irrevocable line had yet been crossed. He could obviously see I was shitting myself and I think if he'd have got his cock out or said 'Suck my fucking dick' i might have lost it. Instead he just said quietly 'Take your t shirt off' and I did it. It wasn't sex, but once done there was obviously only one reason for him to ask and for me to have done it. Now some sort of line had been crossed, small but significant. He moved a little closer to me and then took me completely by surprise. All my jerk off fantasies about men had been sex. Jerking off, cock sucking, fucking etc. but what did he do? He just leaned in and started to kiss me. I had never even contemplated kissing a ..(continue confession)
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