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My wife Janet is a pretty, petite, 35 yo Filipina. We have two sons and have been married 14 years all happily. I'm 38 white guy and have a good job. Life is good for us.
Today Janet was over her friend Maribel's house. They'd been out shopping during the day and I stopped by to pick her up otw home from work.
Maribel said hello, let me in, and told me that Janet was in the room down the hall giving her husband, Bruce,a truck driver a massage. Janet gives great massages, gives them to me all the time, and gives them to our friends, male and female once in a while. She makes a few bucks doing them and puts the money in the kids college funds.
So I walked down the hall, heard music from the room, and pushed open the door and I walked in on.........
Janet leaning over the side of the bed stroking Bruce's cock with her left hand, as he laid on the bed, and squeezing his balls with her right and laughing at something he'd said.
WTF???
And they're having a nice, normal conversation as if they do this all the time!
WTF???
And Janet is topless and in her thong panties and Bruce has one hand on her ass caressing it, hand under her panties pulling at the thong straps, and the other on his belly with his eyes on her tits like he's the King of the World or something.
WTF???
To be perfectly honest Janet was looking perfectly comfortable stroking Bruce's cock, as if she had no fear of Maribel entering the room at all,like she owned it and was just smiling at him as she stroked it.
I was so stunned that when Janet noticed me and glanced over and quietly said "We'll be done in a few minutes. I'll be right out." that I just stood there stunned and watched.
"Like that?" Janet asked, giggling as she spit on the head of it, slowly stroking up and down as he sighed.
"You like that?" she repeated and Bruce nodded his head affirmatively at her.
He pulled her thong down, she was now completely nude, and took her right hand in his left.
"Yeah, I like it" he whispered and my wife leaned towards him.
He kissed her softly on her lips several times, Janet continued stroking his cock as they kissed, and then caressed her ass.
"I know you do" Janet replied, either ignoring my presence or thinking I'd walked away in shame, and she reached for the dresser.
She picked up a blue scrunchy and tied her black hair in a ponytail and, letting go of his erect cock momentarily, she stood to his side.
I watched as Bruce kissed at her breasts and suckled at them for several moments and then he smiled at her.
Janet smiled and giggled and then lowered her head, leaning over, and wrapped her lips around the head of his cock.
She plunged her mouth up and down the shaft, stroking it as she did, and then took it out.
"You like that?" she teased again, giggling, and kissed the head of his cock lovingly, staring at him as she did it.
I watched my wife suck his cock for several minutes as he put his hands all over her.
He had his left hand between her legs and, judging from her moans, was playing with and fingering her pussy.
"I gotta have this one!" Janet suddenly growled, stroking it vigorously and Bruce chuckled confidently.
"Get on up here and ride that cock like you like to honey" he instructed, helping Janet get atop of him, and they kissed as she reached between her legs.
"ooooh! I like this one every time Bruce!" she purred to him as she mounted him.
Janet kissed at his lips passionately and began rocking herself on his hardened cock.
Bruce held her ass firmly, caressing it, and kissed at her breasts and sucked at them as she rode to her delight.
They were making out pretty intensely when Janet cried out "Fuck me Bruce! Fuck me honey! I love it so much!"
I' never heard her utter a profanity ever before.
WTF???
I walked away in shame as Bruce finished banging my wife and sat down in the kitchen with Maribel.
She made small talk but I was so distracted and humiliated by what I'd seen that all I could do was shake my head in response to her remarks.
Bruce and Janet came out several moments later and Maribel, who'd cooked, insisted that we stay for dinner.
It was the most humiliating hour of my life listening to Bruce rave about what a great "massage" my wife had given him and Janet replying that it was her "pleasure" to help him out.
So when we're driving home I ask WTF was all that and she says that she gives Bruce these "massages" 3-5 times every week and sometimes he comes over our house for them with Maribel.
Then she says that Maribel has some kind of vaginal issues that cause her pain and she doesn't like or want sex and she is perfectly ok with Janet stroking off her husband and giving him blowjobs!!!
"And fucking him too?!?!?!" I asked in disbelief and she looks at me and says "Maribel says it helps him relieve his stress so he won't go get another woman and she's my friend so I'm gonna help her" as if that's a reasonable argument.
WTF???
I asked her how often she gives Bruce a special "massage" like that one and she responds "usually every time three or four times each week. He likes them a lot"....as if it's nothing at all to her. She tells me that blowjobs and handjobs aren't "cheating" and she only has sex with him for money for the college fund.
Then she adds that she gives the husbands of two other Filipina friends of hers, Bill & Greg married to Rose & Jenny, the same special "massages" too and their wives don't mind!!!I asked her how often they get the "massages" Bruce gets too and she says "Bill likes it every time three times each week and Greg sometimes only one each week because I want cash for that and he's cheap" and she laughs nervously.
WTF???
"I make a lot for their college doing this" she says, as if confused that I would disapprove.
"I can just do this in our house then if you like" she offers and adds "But I'm not gonna stop because I want a better life for my kids you know".
"I got almost $20,000 in there now" she said and smiled at me.
Then she tells me she may be giving a massage to her new friend Leanna's husband, who is white, a special "massage" the next day.
"I get $100 for those you know!" she says, expecting me to jump for joy or something.
WTF???
Then she swears to me that she's never had sex not for money with any of them and that several women pay her to give them massages too but she's never had sex with a woman. But she didn't want to tell me because she thought I would not approve.
No shit.
She was probably right.
Then she adds that over the past several years she's put $20,000+ in the college savings accounts for our sons from doing this.
The kicker to it all is this:
I run into Maribel the next weekend at a grocery store and we have a conversation that wanders to Janet massaging her husband three to five times each week and Maribel says "Janet is such a good friend to give Bruce free massages just for me because we can't afford to pay for that! She's so sweet!" and as she's walking away I am standing there dumbfounded.
I've been duped and cuckolded at the same time.

My wife is a step/aerobics/personal fitness trainer at one of the local gyms in our town.
She's a slim, fit, perky blonde.
I was in the locker room changing one day when two guys began talking about her, not knowing that I was her husband, and one said how much he'd "love to bang her good!"
Then another guy chimed in that he shouldn't waste her time because she'd been "fucking that trainer Derrick for almost a year now".........
I was crushed.

Last week I was at my boyfriends house taking his cock up my asshole from behind. We were both naked and I'd not long orgasmed. Building upto another climax as he pounded my ass, the door opened to the lounge. His father (His mother and father are divorced) was supposed to be out all night with a new date. It hadn't gone well apparently and he'd returned home early.
I turned to see him staring at his own sins cock sticking right up my asshole and I noticed straight away a growing bulge in his trousers. My boyfriend jumped up and tossed me my clothing, at the same time getting his own. All this time his dad kept his eyes on me and his cock bulge only grew and grew.
My boyfriends dad is hot, believe me and if the rumors are correct, he's a well endowed man (It's a long boring story how I know). Much larger I gather than my boyfriend. The thing isas my boyfriend turned to get dressed, I couldn't help myself from flashing my pussy and asshole to his dad as I bent right over to slip on my sneaker socks. The look his dad gave mke was one of "I'd love to fuck you".
Nothing was said at all, until I said "Sorry Mr ----". He responded by saying "Hey don't be sorry, you're one hell of a sexy young lady" And all this said out of my boyfriends hearing, as he was in his bedroom getting his car keys.
I'm not sure now why I did what I did next, but just before my boyfriend returned I reached down and gripped my boyfriends father's cock through his trousers, and instantly knew the rumor was true.
With my boyfriend returning and him telling his dad he was taking me home, I quickly removed my hand and then cheekily gave my boyfriends father a kiss on the cheek. But held the kiss pressing my tongue to his cheek too.
My boyfriend asked me if everything was ok and if his dad had said anything. I lied and told him his dad was cool about us, and that his dad had asked for me to forget he'd seen anything.
Next week my boyfriend is going over to his moms house for the weekend. I got a text from his dad yesterday (He got my number weeks ago to ask me about a barbecue he was having), asking me if I'd like to call by and check out his bulge again, when his son visits his ex wife.
I text back "Yes"...

This is just to unload a few things off of my chest that I've never told any one. They involve sex and coming of age but aren't earth shaking to any one but me. So let the confession begin.
I was nine soaking in the bath tub with the lights off only because the power was off. I was partly hidden by the shower curtain as my older brother came in and locked the door. There was an open window and enough moon light for me to watch my brother enjoy himself moan slightly and dribble his love drops into the toilet. Then a minute later he relaxed and peed. Wow I thought as my mind filled with questions. Then I believe I was almost fourteen on my girlfriends Dads sailing boat when I peeked in a window from the outside deck and saw my friend with her daddy's thing in her mouth . Wow flash backs of watching my brother and I knew what was going in her mouth. What's it like I asked her later? It's not good and a bit salty but since Moms gone it makes Daddy calm down. I'm still a virgin she exclaimed , me too I replied.
I was babysitting a 7,8 & 13 year old boys when the youngest boy comes out with a dirty magazine he found. The boys giggled as I set the dinner table for them. Then they whisper and make plans as they were practical jokers. I had already been locked in closets and water cups over the doors you know. So as I served the mac and cheese I took the partly hidden magazine and opened it. Does that really happen asked the youngest? Look at page ()is that you? I looked and said heck no! Do you really have a place to put my willy in asked the 8 year old? I red faced said of course it's standard equipment now stop asking questions and eat. They looked at me with X-ray eyes. It was warm and I was only wearing a short summer dress and tiny lacy panty. As I was washing dishes with the oldest the other two were looking up my dress. They ran off to get crayons and scissors . The oldest asked to touch my breast a hundred times. He was so immature only 6 months younger than me. The youngest grabbed the confiscated magazine and ran and I chased him he crawled under his bed and I followed with the other two right behind me. When I grabbed him under the bed they grabbed my legs. I was belly down holding the 7 year old who was now holding me. I felt my skirt flip up and listened to the snip snip of the scissors and felt cool air as my panty was removed . I fought to no avail as the bed was a perfect trap. They just want to see it for real said the youngest. It's mine it's not theirs I struggled. What are you doing as I felt something nonhuman go in me? Then I felt something getting crammed up my anus. It's just a crayon said the middle child. Stop you dummies I'm a virgin still fighting and hurting my back on the bed frame. Then another crayon and another and another. The youngest got away as I squirmed with the boys on my legs. The younger boys succeeded in spreading my legs even further and I was being filled with crayons. At this point nothing hurt by my pride. Ok I'll play your game what ever you want , the bed is hurting my back. Two more crayons and the pack is finished I tried to relax as two more went up my anus. My ass was stretched and it hurt. I grunted and pushed a few partly out. Your hurting me I cried pounding my fist on the carpet. Honest I'll do what you want. Hand cuffs were tossed to me put them on and we will pull you out. I cursed and put them on. I could hardly stand up loaded both ends with crayons. Like a cowboy I pulled out the painful ones up my butt first. I should put these up yours I said. We already have they replied. What the heck I said I couldn't get my fingers up my twat to grab any thing. Damn I said I can't get to them. Get on all fours I'll get them they asked smiling. The closed had a full lenght mirror and I sat in front of it and parted my lips and got my first view of my intact hymen and a crayon deep inside me. I need tweezers that's a small spot to get to. So I got one. And the seven year old said I'm the king of operation let me do this? No I said. Put her back under the bed. Ok ok and I let a seven year old empty my vagina. Then he put his finger in searching for more. That's sensitive I said as he kept digging around. Wait he said I feel the short broken one. I have a short one? I asked . Only three he said but I found one. I pushed on my belly as he reached up his finger . A little more he said and he took the tweezers and got it. There are two more he said. I reached my finger in my self for the first time feeling my cervix and not finding the crayons. Maybe if you jump. So I jumped and squatted and searched and nothing. Worried sick it was way up my uterus I didn't know what to do. Lay on the bed let me check said the oldest so like a dummy with my rear on the edge of the bed I lay back and he put a finger deep in me as I pushed down on my belly. Wow I can feel everything , the two young boys grabbed their bodies around my legs ,we were teasing there aren't any more crayons. I opened my eyes to see a fully hard penis with a clear drip on the tip of it at ground zero. Your such a sneak I said as he placed it at my wet open vagina. I was duped and tried to push back with my hand cuffed arms but I had given position and was very warn out and I tore and he entered me so easily. Oh my gosh this feels so good he said as I cried silently in pain. Let me try said the brothers . When I'm finished he said . No they are so young I said between grunting and trying to think. He lasted forever but he said it was four minutes. And pulled out and squirted on me and not in me thank goodness. They wiped the blood and the both of the younger boys got r**e experience. They didn't ejactulate but they took ten minutes each in me and even though I didn't want to my body responded and I liked it.

My "baby brother" graduates this year. Mom decided to give him a graduation party this last weekend. It was alright, but I told them I had a headache, I really went to my room to text friends. I got carried away and it was after midnight before I realized it. I was so hungry I went down to see if there were any leftovers.

I got to the kitchen and heard noises from the family room. I thought it would be mom watching late night.

It was mom alright, but she was topless on her knees sucking my little brother's cock! My face felt like I was on fire when my little brother looked over and saw me. He didn't say a word, he just stood there letting our mom give him a bj. He started to moan and I could tell he was cumming, but mom just kept sucking him. She finally started to get up and my "little" brother's cock fell out of her out. It was huge!

I ran off before mom could see me, but now it's weird between me and my brother, and when I'm around mom, all I can picture is her on her knees for my brother.

My brother hit on me almost every day until last summer, and my answer was always, get lost perv. Now I wonder if mom is the reason he stopped hitting on me. This is really freaking me out!

I'm younger but the gauge only goes to 18.
I was outside this house on my block, it was night, and I knew that the couple there, Tina and Martin always kept their window dr**es and blinds open at night. I would watch Tina undress and dress into sexy things for Martin. I wanted them do everything. She's suck his cock, he'd cum on her face, in her mouth, on her tits. I watched her tits bounce while he was fucking her, saw her get buttfucked. I usually stayed in these tall bushes under the window and usually jack off while watching. Then one night I knew Martin was out of town but I wanted to see Tina naked anyway and jack off. I went over there and she's dressing into sexy outfits anyway. Then in walks another guy totally naked and he fucks her, slaps her ass a few times, and I grunted too loudly. As I was pulling up my pants the guys shows up out of nowhere and grabs me. He puts me in a headlock and takes me around back to the kitchen door with my pants now falling back down around my ankles.

Once in the bedroom with the light on, Tina saw me. The guy said that I was a little punk out there jacking off peeping on her and him. She explained I lived down the street, then started talking to me, about why she was fucking this guy instead of Martin. In the middle of her asking me not to tell, the guy yelled that I wouldn't say anything, and took a picture of me standing there with my little dick hanging out. He pushed me down on the bed, and what I didn't realize is that while she was talking to me he must have put lube on his cock. I felt a cold probe on my butt.

The guys buttfucked me in front of Tina and made her take pictures.

He made her jack me off with her titties, and I spewed all over her face, then I had to lick it all off and swallow it, all while he was taking pictures.

I see Tina everyday at various places, I just put my head down and she does the same. On my way out the back door, she grabbed my hand and put it on her pussy, and said she was sorry about what he did to me, but that I couldn't tell anyone about the two of them.

About a month ago my wife was in a car accident early in the morning while I was at work.
She was rear ended at a red light.
I left work to go meet her at our insurance agents, she was shaken up but ok and the car was still drivable, and we submitted our claim and went home.
She laid down to rest and I relaxed and watched tv while she slept.
When she woke up she complained of being terribly sore from hitting her chest on the steering wheel. She's Asian, a Filipina that came here in her teens with her family, and only 5'1" tall so she's always scooting the drivers seat way forward. She said her chest, shoulders, back and hips hurt so I called our health clinic's office and got her a quick doctor's appointment.
Her regular doctor, a woman, was not available though because she was off that day.
I took her in and she got assigned a Chinese doctor that we had seen there before. He is maybe in his late forties or early fifties.
My wife wanted me in there with her so I sat in the corner while they talked in English. My wife is a Filipina.
So the doctor, after her description of her soreness, told her to take her blouse off so he could examine her for bruising.
My wife's very attractive.
I know I married way up in the looks department.
She's 31 and I'm 42. I'd guess the doctor was several years older than me.
He ran his hands over her shoulders, squeezing them lightly, and her arms asking if they hurt and my wife responded "No" softly.
My wife sat on the table and the doctor asked if he could "touch" her chest and she nodded and said "Yes".
He touched her above her breasts and asked if it hurt and she replied that it was tender there.
Then he moved his hands over her breasts in front and softly massaged her upper part of her breasts for about 10 seconds.
He pushed on them and asked her if it hurt and she softly said "only when you push them up.".
"Does this hurt?" he asked her, as he pushed them up slowly, and I saw her swallow nervously before saying "a little".
"It hurts here" my wife said softly and unclasped her bra.
She quickly glanced at me, seemingly angry, and took his hands and put them on her breasts.
I sat there somewhat stunned.
The doctor squeezed her breasts softly for about 10 or 15 seconds more asking her if it hurt.
So he put his hands at the side of each breast and pushed them gently together and asked if they hurt.
His thumbs were below her nipples and I could see she was aroused.
My wife looked at me again and then looked at the doctor.
He held each breast in a hand and played with her erect nipples for about 30 seconds or so.
I was staring intently, almost too shocked to believe it, and just watched. She glanced at me angrily when she sensed I was about to speak up and I felt impotent to do anything.
Then he told her to lay back on the examining table and he pressed on her abdomen in several spots asking her if it hurt.
Each time she replied "no".
"No?" he asked, pushing on her rib area.
"Just my chest in front." she answered.
Then he put his hands on her breasts again, as she lay on the table, and gently squeezed and massaged them.
I'm ashamed that I was becoming aroused watching it as I sat there. I think the doctor was very aroused also.
I saw my wife lick her lips, nervously, as he felt her breasts repeatedly like that.
"It hurts there too" she said, as his hands roamed her chest, and he stopped.
"Where?" he asked and my wife guided his hands onto her breasts.
"Right there" she said softly, guiding his hands and then holding his wrists, and turned her head to the side as he fondled her breasts. Her hands were holding his wrists and they moved with his.
"Is very tender here I can feel" he said and my wife nodded her head.
"Yes." my wife said to him.
I'm positive she was aroused because she bit down on her lip as if not to make a sound.
"Doctor Lee?" a female nurse's voice called from outside the room and he took his hands off of my wife's chest.
"Yes?" he replied and the nurse asked him to sign something so he went to the door and opened it and my wife sat up.
"Are you ok?" was all I could muster to say to her.
"Yes" she said to me softly. I could sense she was a bit cold to me for some reason.
"I think that's enough" I said and stood up.
"Sit down. The doctor isn't done." my wife said, glaring at me, and I sat down meekly wondering why she was angry with me.
When the doctor turned around he asked her to stand up.
"I'll check your hips. You can remove your shorts" he said and glanced at me quickly and then back at her.
"Ok" my wife said and unbuttoned and lowered her shorts.
My wife was in her panties and topless at this point.
He stood behind her and, reaching around, he cupped her breasts again and fondled them for about 15 seconds asking if they hurt. They faced away from me and I could see my wife's hands go up as if to hold his.
"Yes. right there" she said as he held them in each hand. He was right up against her.
She sighed loudly as he moved his hands to her waist.
He poked and prodded, with his fingers, at her waist and asked if it hurt and she responded that it didn't.
Then he put his hands on her hips and pressed on them and she replied that they hurt "a little".
He told her to lean forward, over the examining table, and he stood behind her and squeezed her hips and then her behind for several moments as he stood behind her. He massaged her ass for several moments and never even looked over at me. He must've known at that point I was a bit aroused myself and seemingly cuckolded by my wife. And a bit humiliated. My wife didn't look at me either. He spent a good minute or two caressing and squeezing her ass right in front of me.
After all of that he looks at her and tells her to take some over the counter stuff for a day or two and come back if it still hurts.
We went home and she went straight into the bath by herself telling me that she wanted to take a hot bath to relieve the soreness. I heard noises from the bathroom that made me suspect she was masturbating in there.
She scheduled a follow up for a week later and didn't tell me until I'd gotten home from work the day of that appointment. So she had seen that doctor without me present. I told her I would've come with her and she said not to worry she just wanted to make sure everything was ok.
Then she told me that she scheduled her yearly physical with this doctor, instead of her regular female doctor at the medical clinic, and liked him better than the female doctor.
Should I be suspicious now?

I have been thoroughly humiliated by my wife's 21 year old nephew.
I am a 41 year old regional airline pilot, white, and my wife is a 36 year old Filipina housewife. She was a beauty contest winner in her province in the Philippines before she moved here. We've been married 12 years now and have two girls.
"John" has always had a crush on my wife "Rose", his Aunt, and when he was a kid and teen he would joke that "I am going to marry her some day!".
He would always hug her, kiss her cheek, hold her hand whenever he could. His mom is my wife's older sister and his dad is white. He's a really good looking young man, about 6' 1" and has a gym body, and according to his proud dad "He gets a lot of girls!"
John is attending college and he and his parents live about 45 minutes drive form us.
We had a 4th of July party at our house this year and they attended.
We had about 40 people over, a lot of family, friends and neighbors, and I had quite a few beers.
John was hugging on my wife a lot and getting her to dance with him in our yard. I was smiling but getting annoyed with it because this has been going on for several years.
I told the kid to knock it off privately, confronting him in the hallway, and he just laughed at me and pushed past me.
There's no doubt he could kick my ass.
A little later on I could not find my wife. A friend of hers was leaving and wanted to say goodbye to her.
So I went looking for her.
I couldn't find her anywhere outside so I started looking inside of our house.
Several people were talking in our living room and kitchen but everybody else was outside.
I started looking in the rooms and nobody was in the kids room or the guest room.
I went to our bedroom door and heard music playing inside of it so I opened the door slowly.
"Rose" was laying on our bed, her head resting on "John's" left arm, with her clothes off and his right hand was fondling and caressing her tits.
They were making out and "Rose's" right hand was on his back pulling at his muscle shirt and grabbing at him.
her left hand was on his right shoulder and I stood there, dumbfounded, and watched as "John" move his right hand down her belly.
"Rose" willingly put her knees up and spread her thighs for him and groaned loudly as he began playing with her pussy.
I could not believe my eyes.
They went at it like that for a few minutes and then "John" got on his knees and "Rose" pulled his shorts open and down and began sucking his cock right on our bed.
His cock is twice the size of mine. I was stunned.
She had gotten on all fours to suck his cock and they were unaware of my presence.
The weren't speaking at all.
They were just fucking as quickly and quietly as they could.
Then I guess "John" noticed because he smiled and looked over at me.
Our eyes met.
His right hand stroked my wife's hair, and he held it on the side of her face, to keep her from seeing me.
Then he turned her to her right, on all fours, and he entered her doggy style on my bed.
"Rose" moaned loudly, as "John" thrust into her, and he held her ass firmly.
Then he looked back towards me, over his right shoulder, and smiled again.
I was completely humiliated.
I went back outside and they re-emerged shortly afterwards.
"Rose's" friend had already left by then.
She saw someone and started chatting and "John" came and sat down next to me.
He leaned towards me and softly said "I've been fucking her three years now and you can't do shit about it. I'll be done with her soon. Don't worry." and he stood up and walked off.
My wife has no idea that I know.

I went to visit a friend in the hospital. My wife works in an office ther with a window. As i was looking out the window into her office I saw her and a co worker walk in. They did't see me and forgot to close her blinds. Next thing I saw was her on her knees with his BIg dick in the mouth. I watched her deep throat him, she was really going at it. After a few minutes, the guy saw me and smiled, he pulled out of her and shot his load on her face. I went down to see her, her co worker was still in her office. He was schocked to meet me for the first time. I didnt know what to say or do.He couldn't leave fast enough . My wife won't let me come on her face, plus she missed a spot cleaning up and still had some in her hair. Hopefully she won't see it until she gets home and has to explain to me what happened.

So the other day my son walked in on me fucking his 19 year old girlfriend. Now I never intended to do it even though I had thought about it.

She has been staying at my house for a while with my son. Now she is a tiny little Asian girl maybe only 95 lbs. She is flat chested but she had a little bubble in her butt. She was cute as hell.

Now it happens cause she caught me masturbating to Asian porn and got turned on by the size of my dick. Apparently mine is bigger than my son's.

Anyway long story short she was riding me and she is a screamer. I thought it was gonna be a few hours before my son got home. But he obviously heard her and came in to my room and saw us and screamed what the fuck we were doing but she didn't stop cause she was about to cum and the spasms of her puss pushed me over the edge and I came inside of her as my son watched in horror. I feel like shit and he won't talk to me now. I know I am horrible person. But honestly I would fuck her again, she was so tight. And was kinda hot cause it was a little forbidden.