Bi-Sexual Male / 22
Im Sorry For My Trash Nick. This Is About My Terrible Painful Trauma
What do you think of my worst life experience? I was using ritalin in high doses and I hadn't slept for 1 day, that's when I had a psychotic breakdown where I heard in the distance my own mother's screams telling me to stop torturing her with mousetraps, then I heard her screaming at me that she loved me and that I was supposed to run and not look back, she gave me the strength to run and when I finally stopped running and stopped at a church I could hear very loud funk music, people screaming and a guy talking into a microphone in a mocking tone that all the party guests were r****g my mother and there was even one who was a child involved, then I heard the voice say that she had died but that they were still r****g her body with an ear of corn and then they said that I her son would be shocked when he saw what they did to her. every moment the voice laughed, mocked, and sneered at my mother's suffering. at that moment I felt that she was the strongest woman in the world and that even suffering absurdities she can still guide and help me, I looked at a flower and felt the greatest feeling of love for her of my life, soon after that my mother called me actually behind my back to get me home and it took me out of the outbreak, but the trauma and feelings associated with this event never went away. i was addicted to substances but after this event i have found it very easy to control or avoid substance consumption because i know it is good for my mother and she deserves all the best i can give her, now the substances seem weak and helpless to get addicted. and the consideration and notion of love that I have for my mother has grown absurdly. I've been through a lot of bad things, lost a finger in a homemade bomb blast, been bullied, went to jail for 1 years and 2 months, attempted suicide by hanging, overdosed on ritalin, was threatened with death, r**e, torture and mutilation, but none of this surpassed the pain I felt listening to my mother suffering, this was the most painful thing I felt in my life.
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# 60066 - by Boyscocksdelicious / August 10, 2022
