God Came To Us In The Night, And Sent A Man To Impregnate Us
First I have to say that I am lucky, I could have easily gone down the route of my sisters. We grew up in a poor working class neighborhood, lots of drunk fathers, no fathers, older sister prostitutes. My father was serving time for a liquor store robbery gone bad and the attendant was wounded, and an innocent bystander was killed. My father was outside as the lookout, but he got the same sentence. So, we had no father.
My older sister by three years was already a prostitute when I was in the 8th grade. The 8th grade was a make it or break it year, a lot of kids dropped out at that time. We had a new counselor, Margarita who took an interest in me. Margarita was both a lesbian and a born again Christian. She wanted to save my soul, but couldn't resist kissing me. I never turned down her kisses and affections, and I listened to her Christian message to be close to her. It was puppy love on my part, but it was full fledge love on her part. She went so far as to ask my mother to let me live with her, which my mother resisted, but agreed to.
My mother signed papers for Margarita to become my guardian. My mother didn't want me to become a prostitute like my sister. Margarita put me in a Christian private school. Margarita struggled between her faith and making love with me. All I wanted was for Margarita to make love with me. My hormones were in overdrive.
I graduated with honors, and I got a scholarship to a private Christian school in San Antonio. Lots of Latinas went there, but they all had money. I met Lourdes there, she was from the valley, her father owned several dealerships. I went with her to meet her parents. Lourdes was also very Christian, but when it came to girls, she couldn't resist her imperfections, and we made love and repented. Lourdes was my first true love, Margarita was my 'mother'. Margarita approved of Lourdes for me, and didn't interfere with our relationship. At twenty we were full fledged lesbians, sexually, but not openly. We were Christian missionaries on campus, saving girls from eternal damnation.
After graduation, I have a degree in Finance, I went to work for her father as a loan officer for one of his dealerships. Lourdes had come out to her parents, and she dragged me along with her. They didn't approve, it was a sin of the highest order, but better to keep us close than let us fall further. I can't say enough of how they gave us room to really grow both spiritually and emotionally. We were twenty five and what we wanted more than anything was to be allowed to get married.
This was a problem. The Minister of Lourdes' church made arrangements for this other Minister to come to us, and we were married not in the church, but a sunrise service on the ranch with friends and family. We had comments like 'at least you have each other', 'you are both strong Christian girls', 'have you given much thought to having children'. We were twenty five, not thinking that far ahead. We got a house as part of the deal, and we set up to be a normal couple surrounded by our Christian neighbors. No one ever used the word 'lesbians', we were 'soulmates', lost in the wilderness. We still had to be saved.
The day came when we had to face our sex. The day when we were told, unceremoniously, if we didn't find a way to procreate, from our eggs and uterus, we weren't going to Heaven. As the vessel for God's children, we had better get pregnant. And he was the man to do it. The reason a man has such strong hands, is to reign in wild women, and break them for his stable. That he was proposing a 'plural' wife club, didn't bother him. Lots of men had more than one wife, albeit not at the same time. But why get into such arguments. Let him make us pregnant and we would see for ourselves why God made men for us. Of course he was Mexican, forty three, with a lost wife and children by her. Now, he intended to make wives out of us. And we had to surrender. Because, he had so determined.
I will let you make up what you wish. Este MACHO, Don Pancho, had breached our defenses. And like lambs, we went to slaughter.