Were you outed and didn't want to be? Need to talk about your very first time or encounter? Have a question about technique or about safe sex? Whatever it is, lay it all out here. This category is specifically for lesbian stories.

My Story Up To Now

My mother is a later day hippy. She lived in Atitlan for a long time. She became pregnant with me by someone passing thru. After I was born she was told by a friend she needed to register me with the embassy, so I could be an American citizen. My mother was totally washed out, broke for money, with only a letter from the woman that delivered me. She was twenty. Ran away at sixteen.

At the embassy, a man doing business there in the waiting room felt sorry for my mother, or me. A baby in rags. He paid for someone to get some food for her, decided yo take her with him to clean her up. Took her and me to a doctor for a checkup. My mother hadn't seen a doctor since she ran away. Fortunately the birth was normal and her friend knew what to do. He decided to keep us, on a trial basis. He never asked us to leave. I grew up there, went to school, he recognized me as my father, married my mother a few years later. All was normal for me and my mother forgot about being a hippy. She was a society lady when I grew up.

Anyway, I went to a private Catholic school for rich kids. There were a few on scholarships, everyone knew who they were. One of them liked being close to me, physically close. We started to mess around, we became sexually involved. Until my father found out. The next day I was on a plane to a school in Switzerland. A reformatory for girls. I could only leave through a marriage. An arranged marriage. I was seventeen. I moved to Ottawa, then Bern, to New York, where I went to NYU.

My father sees me every other month, my mother twice a year. She still isn't over the disappointment in me. The hippy girl couldn't deal with my lesbian being, my conservative father could. My husband, don't ask. Suffice it to say it is a subject that never takes place.

I'm still married, my father is seventy five, my mother forty five, that makes me twenty five. I've been married eight years. I have a friend, female. We aren't exactly Mother Teresas, not with what we do. My marriage is pretty formal, my husband works at the UN. If my friend wasn't my friend I'd go crazy. When the cat's away we can play. We don't play peek a boo.

  • When A Woman Wants To Be Your Boss, She Will Ask The Same Questions

    After a run I showered and came out of the bathroom in a towel. My friend was there, laughing at me. She pulled on my towel, and it fell to the ground. No fault of mine. She did what she did, I repeated what she asked me to repeat. We were friends not lovers, except for that one time.

    I spend my time with my friend, Hanna. She's a bit demanding, likes being my boss. I like that she is my boss. It must be in the blood. Before my friend became my lover I was a quiet student. I only imagined what it would be like. Now I know. When my friend asked me those questions after my run, I answered what she wanted, not what I felt. My current friend Hanna asks me those same questions, I do not have to lie. I gladly answer her, because I feel that with her.

    As He Is My Lord In Heaven, I Have My Lord And Master On Earth Too

    I went to law school after I 'outgrew' my role in ballet. I studied ballet as an undergraduate. I had a friend, and lover, who was a photographer. She did some work with me that hit the internet. After that no company would hire me.

    After law school I got a job with a corporation, as junior counsel. That's where I met Ann. She was a tax compliance officer, we became friends overnight. She is a closeted dyke, married to a high flyer. He's her image of a man. I learned that he had her when she was an incoming student in college. He kept her, and she adapted.

    My eight year old Audi developed some problems. The dealer where I bought it blew me off. She offered her husband, dealer interaction is a man thing. He would get it fixed. He played like he was my boyfriend, and they agreed to fix it. Now we had to please him, woman work.

    We made dinner for him at my place. I have some B&W pictures of me posing on my hall wall, all nudes. In my bathroom, a larger print in a bathtub. Nude, no mistake I'm a girl. My friend told me when he saw the pictures he would fuck me. I told her, only she fucked me.

    We had dinner, he liked the pictures, Ann showed him the whole set. I knew he would fuck me. I had never allowed a man with me, I only agreed because she was there with me. Ann promised that when he was finished with me, I would call him Lord and Master.

    He says that I give him what he's missing. My friend's a dyke, and I'm not. He wants soft caresses, a small woman. She's devoted, but not affectionate. When she's with me, he is my Lord and Master.

  • Here We Are, Fifteen Miles From Town, We Are Ranch Girls Now

    In the world of twisted things, I tell the story of us. There is he, his or him, there is she or her, his sister, and there's me. I met her my last year of college and we rapidly slipped into a forbidden intimate relationship. It was new to both her and me. He wasn't pleased with our frustrations, it upset him no end. At one point his frustration with us, went off the rails and he had sex with her. She took it badly as she should, he took it out on me. We graduated with babies in our bellies.

    He moved us to a border state hidden away on a ranch to grow our babies, and deal with our frustrations. In our seventh month he took me in marriage, to give me a name to 'belong' to him. When it was time for the babies a midwife came to attend to us. We both presented within 48 hours, and the midwife recorded me with fraternal twins, the sole birth mother.

    His business endeavors bore fruit, other than the fruit born from our wombs. Our frustrations by then had been watered, pruned and cared for and we were in full bloom. The babies, blessed with four arms to cradle them and four mother's breasts to nurture them grew and grew, healthy and strong. Our ranch house, stark and simple, became our home.

    Our twin boys are young men, his business is going strong, our frustrations are stronger than ever, she's my lantern, my life guide, my lover, my friend. Our ranch house has grown as the twins have demanded more room, our garden, and our pool, transformed the back yard. We have enough space for two golden retrievers who own the outside. They too are twins, from the same litter.

    Being Dominated As Shorty By Very Tall Woman

    Nothing makes me cum hard like being cornered as a 4'7 woman by a 6'6 woman who is much more muscular than me and holding me there easily by wall. Better if she says she gonna slap me hard depending on how hard i squirt from all this. Some have a butt i just want to bite away at for being in my face too

  • My Struggles Are Harder And Harder To Contain, I Have To Try Harder

    My parents were stationed in Latin America. When the assignment ended they decided to stay and open a business. I was enrolled in an English speaking school so when I went to college I could keep up. It was in the eighth grade that a junior math teacher overwhelmed me with sexual advances. What was expressions, compliments, kisses and feeling up, became outright sex at her apartment. We were discovered, she was dismissed, and I was sworn to secrecy.

    I applied for and was accepted to my mother's college in Massachusetts. It wasn't anything like she remembered. Wholly liberal arts it was the bed of political agitation, and lesbian authority. I didn't fit in, I wasn't politically oriented, and growing up in Latin America these agitators seemed immature and ignorant. Rich kids who didn't like themselves, that was my father's take on it. I won't say I didn't meet one or another girl, but the politics infected everyone.

    I left after a semester, went to a college in Seattle. I studied child psychology, but stayed in college because of a girl. We moved to the bay area. I got a job as an assistant counselor at a grade school. My boss was a 'hardened' lesbian. One day the rhetoric was too much for me. I returned to my parents, 27, a lesbian, unattached, starving for acceptance.

    It was then that I met a msn who listened to me, the first male I ever told I was lesbian, I found a friend in him. I trusted him. I could tell him anything. But he had romantic and sexual interest in me. I let him, I won't say I participated. But I became pregnant, again I let him, didn't stop him. Anything to please him. He decided for me, get married.

    I had been home five months and had announced to my parents I was pregnant and getting married. We moved after the baby, back to the states, this time middle America. US flags, Fourth of July celebrations. Gays and lesbians were mostly quiet, a few loud voices. I made friends with a lesbian elementary teacher and was in a sexual affair a few months after arriving there. It was our honeymoon and I was careless. My husband, who knew full well I am a lesbian read me like an open book. Be careful what you wish for. At stake was my marriage, my son with his father, a stressless financial life. I became pregnant again, snd ended my affair.

    I'm a married to a man lesbian. I am the mother of three children. I work hard on my marriage. I'm scared of another affair, that I won't be strong enough to prevent it. I know I can't risk my marriage.

    Secret Lives, Secret Lovers

    It was debutante season. I was seventeen. The debutante ball was being held at the country club. My mother insisted I ask her best friend's son to be my escort. He was also seventeen. He wasn't part of the in crowd, not cool, not fun, didn't play sports. He was a band nerd. He had never been on a date. His mother was worried that he was exhibiting gay tendencies. My mother wanted me to find out. Offer him sex, I was already on birth control.

    Personally I didn't like him. We had nothing to talk about.

    At the ball, after the presentation of all the debutantes that season, he was beaten up in the boys bathroom. More than one guy. They broke his nose, and glasses. I held him against me trying to stop the bleeding. My gown was ruined. My mother took us to the emergency room, where they set his nose. He wouldn't say who beat him up.

    We didn't have a chance to talk about sex.

    I went to a nice safe teachers college. He went to MIT. He scored very high on his SATs, and he had an in, one of his uncles was an alumni. I had sex in college, mostly with other girls. It was our version of safe sex. When we had sex one of the girls had to be the guy' and one of the girls had to be the 'girl'. I somehow always had to be the guy. I liked being in charge, deciding what I did with her. A real guy tried to get me to go with him, but I managed to evade his advances.

    After college I ran into 'him'. He had a degree in physics. He was mature. We had sex. My 'first' guy. His first 'girl'. It turned out we were both homosexuals, gay. After our one time we knew. We became homosexual friends. We protected each other's secret. We 'dated' and got 'engaged' snd got married. We did not consummate the marriage. He found men, and I found 'girls'. I never called my lovers women.

    I got a lot of headwind from my family and his. Why wasn't I pregnant? Did I have a problem? Had I been to a doctor? They can check for problems. No one suggested, not even once that he could have a problem. Our problem was pretty simple, we never had sex. Not with our own kind.

    We had been 'together' a few years when he told me why he was beat up for my debutante ball. Something about being caught giving oral sex to a ball player, a 'hero', big man on campus. They beat him up. That guy was married with a glamour girl, with kids and he fucked guys. I couldn't help but wonder if she had sex with him after he fucked some guy.

    We continue with our charade. I never got pregnant, blamed it on him, and pretended to be heartbroken being denied children. We never cross paths with our lovers. That's the secret to our secret, we keep our lovers secret from each other.

    I Know, It's Not Maybe, But I'm Married Twenty Years With 3 Kids

    As an inexperienced college student I made a physical pass on a girl I liked. The rejection was immediate and hard. I went back to my apartment, feeling small and hurt. A friend called a and convinced me to go out for pizza. We ran into some friends she knew and we went to their apartment for some fun. I woke up with an urge for the bathroom to vomit, there was a guy I didn't know, and I had been sexually exploited, both vaginally and anal. My mind slowly brought back the picture. In the kitchen, he came up to me, we smoked something, he felt me up and we went to a bedroom. He forced anal on me, before finishing in me. Now I was in the bathroom emptying my guts.

    Men don't share. He put me into his vise, controlling and abusive emotionally. He had sex with me, this time in my apartment. The domestication had started. Mostly in my apartment, I had to deal with a pregnancy. My roommate convinced me I had to tell him before doing anything. He took it poorly, but prohibited me from doing anything. Before the fog cleared I was married, a Mrs. and pregnant.

    A college student. I had to tell my parents. That went badly, at least I wasn't telling them I thought I was lesbian. Was, now I was married and pregnant. I managed to finish college with a little one, my now husband did too and we were off to the races. We moved, had kids, he got promoted. We turned forty, I met a lady lawyer. She flirted, let her legs crossed flashing her panties. It was love at first site, overwhelmed my senses. She lay on the bed, small, like a girl. I fell on her, clumsy, never made love to a girl. Except in my mind.

    The affair was all I thought of, at the expense of my marriage and children. He noticed, it took him one conversation to expose me. As a man he had one rule. I was his wife, period. No affair. Period. Now it was my turn to do the rejecting. The affair was over before it started.

    The affair ended, but not the memories.

    My Culture Handled My Orientation Early, But In The Closet

    When I go through pictures of my growing up years the last picture I can find of me in a dress is for my 1st Communion. After that I wore pants, shorts, anything. But not a dress. Or long hair. or anything feminine. I was a tomboy, in all ways. My friends at school were always boys, and I had very jealous feelings about this and that girl. So much so that I was considered a bad influence and I wasn't allowed to be friends with them.

    Puberty was hell. My body rebelled against me. I was prepuberty short compared to the boys, slim. Overnight I got hips and tits. I mean tits. I had to start wearing a bra at 12 and by then I was in full menses. Bleeding like a stuffed pig. It was during puberty that I got upset with this one girl because she ignored me and I held her down on the ground and kissed her. I stood over her and declared her my girlfriend. This was a public display of affection and I ended up in the school office. My parents sent me to a counselor, a woman. She is and was a butch lesbian in every sense of the word. She is the first person to use the word lesbian with me, homosexual, gay, boys and boys and girls and girls.

    The drawings of boys kissing and holding hands repulsed me. The drawings of girls kissing and holding hands drew me closer. I was diagnosed and put into therapy. Weekly meeting with this woman to talk about feelings, sexual feelings, like wanting to kiss a girl. Had I ever thought about kissing a girl between the legs, a drawing showed this girl on her back and this other girl with her head between her legs. I liked the drawings, perfect bodies, small tits of course. I have big tits, so I guess it was just natural to like girls with small tits.

    I was exposed to full on photographs of naked women. Some of naked men, but like I said that repulsed me. My first ever encounter with a woman's full blown open pubic was via a photograph of a young woman. For medical purposes only. My therapist went through clinically, this is the vagina, this is the opening of the urethra, this is the clitoris. These are the labia, this is the mound, sex ed except no penis. I was a lesbian girl and this woman was there to get me to accept myself, but I had to go through all of the presentations. Full on photographs of girls dancing together, of girls holding hands, of girls kissing, kissing with one hand on the other girls tit.

    She told me I was most definitely a homosexual. Gay, and for women, Lesbian. One day I would find that perfect girl, but for now I had to keep my hands off the girls. Here, she showed me a small device, use this to masturbate. I got a full session on anal penetration and NOT TO DO IT.

    I then got to the lectures on social behaviors, and wanting children and getting married, even if that wasn't my first instinct. You can safely marry a man for the obvious reasons, you need a man to have children. You may not want one right now, but that is something you need to be prepared to deal with. There was an offhand remark about hiring a maid to be close with, that's what she did. She showed me a picture of her maid. That's what all the lesbians did in our circle. Just don't marry a gay man.

    I had this and that sexual experience, but never with girls that I went to school with. Until my mother hired a maid. Maids, or more precisely daughters of maids. That's what you do, have your mother hire a maid with a daughter that's your age. That's what my mother did. My maid was Cecilia. MY MAID. When I went to college Cecilia went with me. When I got married Cecilia went with me. When I had children, Cecilia was with me. When I write this Cecilia is with me. Cecilia. I LOVE HER. It's my husband that I have a hard time loving.

    NOTE: I never once refused my husband. Not once. And I am still in the closet. Everyone knows, but no one talks about it.

  • A Story, True And Unvarnished

    We were teens doing nothing. We got around to sex, again, a repeated topic. "What's your biggest fantasy?". She answered in a very guarded voice "let's eat pussy". That's how it started.

    College and out in the real world we shared an apartment, shared a bed and a shower. We had yet to lose our virginities, our 'luck' with men was none existent. In one of those off hand conversation my coworker offered up, 'maybe you're unlucky because you come across as a lesbian'. I answered 'how so?'. 'Oh honey, it's written all over your face'.

    I didn't want to be 'lesbian' or perceived of being lesbian. My dreams were Mr. Nice Guy, marriage and children.

    I turned 32 still lesbian, still a virgin. My 'roommate' was still my lover, my lesbian partner. We decided to try a blind date scenario. We put an ad in the personals 'Miss Lonely looking for love and children'. We were very careful, very careful. We interviewed this one man. No sex other than procreation. My roommate would witness, nothing other than procreation, no 'titties'.

    It was 'awful'. Really awful. The most regretful five minutes of my life. But it was 'done' and nature took it from there. The only saving grace us that the whole encounter was anonymous, fake names on both sides. Motel, bus to the arrival and departure, wig and dark lights.

    The pregnancy 'progressed' normally. Incessant progress. A 'parasite' taking over my body. One day it was over and we took home our 'bundle of joy'. We tried breast feeding, it was chore like we never imagined and gave up after six weeks. Someone had to stay home. I was the mother, my duty call, I was the housewife.

    Your brain functions normally, unless your hormones take over. Our son was three and I got pregnant, another anonymous encounter. This is when I wished we had 'milked' my son's father, kept enough sperm for another. As it is, there could only be different fathers. It was twenty years since that day when we decided to eat pussy.

    We are lesbians no doubt about that. Men didn't look us up, unless we reached out in the personals. Our son's are now grown up, two mothers. And two fathers. The mothers they know, but not their fathers.