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When I Was A Kid
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WHAT I AM ABOUT TO WRITE, I HAVE NEVER SAID OUT LOUD AND I'M NOT SURE IF I AM 100% CORRECT. - Names have been changed.
When I was a little girl like kindergarden through third grade I would always visit my grandparents house. Well my way way older cousin lived down the street with a family of his own. A son named Gabriel and a daughter named Aliyah.
Gabriel would always come over to my grandparents house when I was there to "play". I just thought it was cool becuz an older kid was giving me attention. Gabriel is about 8 yrs older then me. So he definitely knew what he was doing!!!
And I have vivid memories of him always wanting to be alone with me.
There's this frame that reels over and over in my head. We are in the kids room(playroom) and he tells me to close the door. So I do and then he comes up behind me to give what I think is a bear hug but it's not. He has one hand on my waste pressing me against his body and the other in my pants fondling me.
I think he tried to penetrate(with his fingers) becuz I remember a sharp pain.I think I may have told my brother, Lyle,about it during the time frame of these "playtimes". I remember when we had to share a bedroom when i was in 4th grade I asked Lyle if I had ever said anything bad about Gabriel and I think he said yeah.
He asked me why and I didn't answer him. He continued to ask and I just rolled over in my bed and went to sleep and had a nightmare or memory of my "playtime" with Gabriel. Gabriel is a college grad and is always hanging out with my mom. His presence makes me uneasy.
Now I'm 15 about to be 16 and has never had a bf or her first kiss. I blame him for my fear of the male gender. He also where's this distinctive cologne that makes my stomach turn. I can walk into my grands house and smell him when he is all the way downstairs.
When I was a little girl like kindergarden through third grade I would always visit my grandparents house. Well my way way older cousin lived down the street with a family of his own. A son named Gabriel and a daughter named Aliyah.
Gabriel would always come over to my grandparents house when I was there to "play". I just thought it was cool becuz an older kid was giving me attention. Gabriel is about 8 yrs older then me. So he definitely knew what he was doing!!!
And I have vivid memories of him always wanting to be alone with me.
There's this frame that reels over and over in my head. We are in the kids room(playroom) and he tells me to close the door. So I do and then he comes up behind me to give what I think is a bear hug but it's not. He has one hand on my waste pressing me against his body and the other in my pants fondling me.
I think he tried to penetrate(with his fingers) becuz I remember a sharp pain.I think I may have told my brother, Lyle,about it during the time frame of these "playtimes". I remember when we had to share a bedroom when i was in 4th grade I asked Lyle if I had ever said anything bad about Gabriel and I think he said yeah.
He asked me why and I didn't answer him. He continued to ask and I just rolled over in my bed and went to sleep and had a nightmare or memory of my "playtime" with Gabriel. Gabriel is a college grad and is always hanging out with my mom. His presence makes me uneasy.
Now I'm 15 about to be 16 and has never had a bf or her first kiss. I blame him for my fear of the male gender. He also where's this distinctive cologne that makes my stomach turn. I can walk into my grands house and smell him when he is all the way downstairs.
