I have a cousin who is about 2 years younger than me. When I was 19 I used to go to the lake and waterski. One time I asked her to come. Her 17 year old body had already developed and she was smoking hot. I got the impression then that she might like me as more than just a cousin. Her hugs were always a little too tight and a little to close, usually resulting in her tits rubbing against me or brushing my crotch.

Years later after I graduated from college I owned my own home in a city about an hour from where she lived. She came to visit. We went out for drinks and dinner and just caught up. She was dressed incredibly sexy and I had no doubt at this point it was for my benefit. Back at my house we watched a movie and she started massaging my shoulders. After she said I should rub hers. She sat on the floor in front of me and as I massaged her while concealing a raging erection I slowly worked my way down the front of her chest until I was rubbing the tops of her tits. By now all pretense was gone. She was there to screw around. She turned on me and we started making out. She was incredibly aggressive. I don't know how I never managed to date a regular girl like this but she swore up and down that she loved to suck dick. She said she got off on it and on the power she had over a guy while she would blow him. We continued to mess around and she asked if I would fuck her. I don't know why but at this point either guilt or fear of being caught kicked in. I told her I wouldn't feel right fucking her. She seemed disappointed but asked if she could suck me off. For whatever reason my fear of being caught didn't include getting a hummer from my cousin.
She proceeded to give me one of the best blow jobs I've had to this day. It took almost no time at all and I was ready to cum. I warned her but she held on and swallowed as I nutted in her mouth. When I finished and we cleaned up we talked a little more. I was stunned at what had happened. She even asked if she could suck me off again a little later. Since my dick wasn't already engorged I had my wits about me and declined.
We went to sleep. I slept on the sofa and she slept in my bed. After I layer awake for a while I got horny thinking about what had happened. I walked into my room got into bed with her. After a little prodding she was awake and apparently ready to go again. This time she allowed me to get on top of her and titfuck her while occasionally letting her suck on me cock. Again I lasted almost no time at all and was cumming in her mouth and down her neck.
I've never told a soul about that encounter but last year while I texted her on her birthday. I was married by now and my wife was out of town. We texted back and forth a couple of times and topics quickly started to border on sexting. At one point we toyed with the idea of meeting up that night. Probably only because she wasn't there with her hand on my dick I managed to decline the offer and narrowly avoided the encounter.
My wife is going to Chicago in a few weeks for 4 days. I would be lying if I said I wasn't thinking of contacting my cousin again. Right now I know the correct thing to do is not contact her at all but I can't say I'm not extremely tempted.

Thoughts?