I was always extremely turned off by the thought of incest or anything even related to the idea. Until one night changed everything.

I was in Europe for the first time visiting family. I arrived in Belgium to find a very hazy, depressing little town with nothing to do. My cousin AMY was a year older then me at the time. I was 15, she was 16. she was 5'4'', 100 pounds, glasses, brown hair/brown eyes, C cup. I didn't honestly find her attractive yet there was something always flirty about her.

I started to dread my 2 week stay in Europe. it was always gloomy and the sun never came out. I spent most of my time reading novels and watching season after season of desperate house wives. (that was the only thing they had in english) The family was gone most of the day visiting other relatives leaving amy and I at home. She normally was on the computer emailing friends in a tanktop and shorts. She had a heavy accent and ask me if she could watch tv with me. Of course I said yes, and she followed me upstairs. After watching for alittle bit, she put her arm around me smiling tell me. "miss you little cousin" Innocently I said "miss you too."

That night I started sleeping in her room because the air condition Was broken in mine. (go figure) it was a three story house with her room as the whole top floor. We talked about childish things such as GF's, BF's and porn. She asked me if I ever had sex before, and I said no. she goes on to tell me "if I wasn't related to you, we could have alot of fun" instantly I got a erection at the taboo thought. I said "well it's not like we ever even see each other" she smiled and let the subject pass. We soon started to call it a night. She tells me she can't sleep without the tv so we left it on. We pull the covers over ourselfs and began joking and tickling each other. she soon tells me she cold and for me to spoon her.

it was late at night so the 1800 sex lines commercials started to come on. Now in Europe they are allowed to show full nudity minus pussy and intercourse. It was like watching porn for me. Of course I soon started to get an erection. I tried to pull my erection and put it on around the waist band of the shorts to hide it. I was still spooning amy when i notice she slowly start to bump her tight ass on my erect throbbing cock. I didn't know if she was doing it on purpose or just accidentally but i let out a moan.

she continue to grind slowly on it. I was extremely nervous and scared so I turn and laid on my back. 5 minutes later pretending to be a sleep she turns and places her head on my chest. This whole time my erection is still stiff hard. I slowly place my hand around her and she starts to scratch my arms and stomach. my cock switched as she continued. I didn't know what came over me but i suddently took charge. I slowly slipped my hand into her tanktop and felt her tits. She light out a quiet moan. a slowly ease my hand down her stomach and into the waistband of her pants.

She eruptly stops me and whisper in my ear..."cousin, what are you doing" I tried to stop but i knew in her tone she wanted me to keep going. I replied "idk" and she just laid back quiet. i brushed my hand over her clit and she whimpered. i remember i started to ooze precum alittle bit. my cock was pulsing, moving the sheets and she felt it. SHe slowly slide her hand over my cock and gently moved it up and down.

THings started getting out of control and my cock was guiding me rather then my head from right/wrong. I didn't care she was my blood cousin, i just keep playing with her moist clit which was now dripping.
I could feel her pussy cumming as I slowly slide two fingers inside her. This whole time we are not talking and almost pretending to be asleep. she keeps massages the head of my cock faster and faster. after alittle longer I got tired of her undies in the way so i slipped them off. she turns to me and puts her arms around my neck. I whisper to her "what are we doing"

she relies now I dont know. My cock is hard out and she is laying naked with no bottoms on. the bed is soaked from our sweat now since we are under the covers this entire time. I put my cock and edge it around her clit. she whipers and moans. I continue to circle and gently jab at her clit and labia until I accidently penerate her about 1/2 inch. She immediately catches her breath and grabs my arm.

she whisper "cousin, we can't.......please"

I was so horny I didn't listen to her....I continue to nudge the 1/2inch already inside her in and out.

she says "no, don't please....it's not right"

i can hear in her voice she wants it....and i continue regardless. She nthe tightly holds me and tells me "this is very bad.....i'm so horny" I got so turned on i pushed my entire 7 in uncut cock inside her. she screamed alittle and grab on tight. She started to whimper and cry out "oh cousin....please, we can't no more" her english was alittle broken, and it was such a turn on. I continue to slowly go in and out of her tight pussy, as i feel i was gonna explode. I told her I wanted to cum, and she immediate jump off me. i shot all over the bed and my whole body stayed still. she too did not move. we feel alseep without saying anything.

we never spoke of this ever to this day. We are now in our late twenties and still see each other every 2-3 years. she is now married with a one year child.

I feel disgusted and ashamed i lost my virginity to a family member. But at the same time, it was such a turn on. If I went back in time, i would do it again in a heart-beat.