I'm not writing this for you to read, or enjoy. I'm writing this because i need to.
I dont know what category this belongs in, but this is where it's going.

I have a problem. I think. I think i'm addicted to porn. I watch it quite a bit, I'll admit that. I don't think it is to the point of addiction yet, but I fear it could turn into that. I hate it. That's the odd thing. I hate myself when i watch it. And even more after i'm done. But i cant stop.

Two nights ago, something clicked in my head. I dont know what it was, but i know that i dont feel the same way that i used to about porn. Yes, i still want to watch it, and yes, i stll want to masturbate. But im not going to. I'm going to do my best to get myself off of porn. I slipped up today, but i caught myself. I stopped after a few minutes and those few minutes werent even as enjoyable as they were last week. I want to beat this. I want to do this for self improvement.

I dont care if anybody ever ready this. I really don't. but if somebody does, thank you. You have no idea what this is like. Or maybe you do. I cant talk to anyone i know about this. I need to tell someone though, so here i am. I'm leaning on total strangers for support. Not even support really, just people to tell. This is something that has to be done on my own, so it will be.

Again, for any stranger who is out there that reads this far, Thank you. I dont know if anyone even will get this far, but if they do, it would sure mean a lot.