I'm a 20 year old female. I have a boyfriend who is a year older than me and we have been together for nearly 3 years. He is in his 3rd year of university and i will be living with him very soon. I'm not in university myself.

I really do love him but the thing is, recently I met a guy, who is a couple of years older than me, who I've been flirting with a lot. Recently when I went to his with some friends I stayed afterwards. we flirted a lot beforehand and touched each other a lot and when everyone else left we kissed. I felt really bad but I really liked it. I ended up staying at his and sleeping in his bed with him, cuddling together. He knew my boyfriend and we tried to keep our hands off of each other but we groped and played with each other before falling asleep together.

I felt guilty and I haven't told my boyfriend. Me and the guy have done more since then. I have even had sex with him, twice.
No one knows but me and him and although he wants to be with me he is respecting the fact i don't want anyone to know.

I am a bad bad person, and the guy I love will never realize why.