I'm in love with my best female friend who I hooked up with. She's the only person I would consult/confess this type of thing to, but I obviously can't tell her. I also think she's started to hook up with our other friend, the second person I would go to about this type of thing. It's driving me crazy, I feel like I'm in constant competition with him and can't win. To make matters worse, the times we have hooked up have been when I've been terribly drunk and obviously haven't put up that good of a showing. Fuck.