I guess I was about 11,it was 5th or 6th grade. I was at the play ground watching some older high school guys play basketball. 2 of them got into a fight, and one knocked the other down and called him a faggot. I didn't know what the word meant, but for some reason I thought it was funny and started laughing. The guy on the ground got mad and left and the game went on. After a while I got bored and left. I started walking down an alley that led to my house, when the guy that had lost the fight stepped out from behind some bushes and pulled me in. he was mad because I had laughed at him and started smacking me in the face and pushing me against the wall of a garage. I kept telling him to let me go but he kept pushing me and calling me a smartass. Then he pinned me against the wall and pushed me down to my knees and started rubbing his crotch on my face. I tried to get away but couldn't, and he was saying "Who's the fag now, you like that don't ya lil fag?" The he pulled out his dick and started rubbing it on my face, and telling me to suck it, when I wouldn't open my mouth he slapped me on the ear and told me to open my mouth. Eventually I did, and he screwed my mouth while I choked. He held one hand around his cock right at my mouth and and the other on my head while he pumped his cock into my mouth. I didn't know what it was at the time, but when he ejactulated, he held my head so I couldn't move. and I thought I was going to drown, all I could do was swallow, and try to breathe. Afterwards he laughed and said "Who's a faggot now?, if you tell anyone they will all know you sucked my dick, and they will laugh at you!" I said "Only because you made me!" and he said "It doesn't matter, they will still know you did it." and then he walked away. I sat there crying for a little while, and scared that someone would find out. There was no way I could tell my parents what happened, and I could never tell my friends. So I didn't say anything. About a week later I was walking near my house, and someone yelled "Hey buddy!" I turned and saw the guy waving from the passenger side of a passing car, he put his finger to his lips like SHHHH, and smiled as they drove away. I got scared and went home. About a month after that I was playing football with some friends at the football stadium. The guy showed up and called me over, he asked if I had told anyone about what happened. I said no, he asked if I wanted him to tell them, I broke out in a sweat and said "Please don't", but he said he was going to tell them if I didn't go with him right then, so I hollard to my friends that I had to go, and I went with him. He led me to a place behind the bleechers and told me that if I didn't do it again that he was going to tell. He pulled it out and put my hand on it and had me stroke it, when he got hard, he started pulling my face down toward it. I just felt like I had no choice, so I put it in my mouth. He was much gentler this time, he hardly said anything, and I didn't mind it as much, there was a weird sensation of doing something I knew was wrong but nobody knew it but he and I. When he came, he pulled out to shoot and I watch with facination as he came, I had never seen someone cum before, the first time he did it in my mouth so I didn't even know what it looked like. I was almost sorry as he put his dick back in his pants and zipped up. I kind of wanted to see it again. He helped me up and thanked me, he said I was getting to be good at it, and said not to worry, he wouldn't tell anyone. And as he walked away, I felt like he was a pretty nice guy really. After that, we had a strange friendship of sorts. I started looking forward to playing with his dick, he didn't have to ask me to, I would take it out myself. We would see each other out and about,it might be a week later, or a month, and we would slip away so I could blow him. He never touched me or tried to fuck me or anything, he just liked having me suck his dick. After he graduated school, I would go to his house while his parents were working, and we would watch pornos while I stroked and sucked him. We became pretty good friends, until he went away to college. After that I rarely ever got to see him. Through it all, no one ever found out. I had several girlfriends in High School and was a pretty popular guy. No one would have ever suspected what I had done. I hadn't had any experience with any other guys untill I went to college. I was drunk and alone one night just walking around when I stumbled on an adult book store. I walked in, and ended up in a video booth. That's when I discovered what a glory hole was. It freaked me out at first, but within minutes I was sucking someones dick. When they came, I just sat there for a minute, giving them time to leave because I didn't want them to see my face. Within half a minute, another dick poked through the hole, then another and another. I blew 7 dudes that night, I didn't stop untill my jaw was sore from sucking. When I walked out of the booth, I could feel the eyes of people in the room but I just kept my eyes on the floor and walked quickly out the door, and then went into a full run towards home. I laid on my bed thinking about what I had done and it made my dick so hard, that it was seeping cum, I jacked off 3 times in a row just picturing all the dicks. I used to go there about once a month, I would take about $30 and get it all in change, then set up shop in my favorite booth. I have know idea how many guys I blew over the the next year and a half, I just felt a compulsion to keep going back and doing it. Then, while out with some friends, I met an amazingly hot girl, no lie, she was the spitting image of Phoebe Cates, and I was instantly smitten, amazingly she was too. We've been married for 12 years now, with two kids. I have never cheated on her ever, I still love her very much, and our sex life is still really good for being together for as long as we have. I will never be with another guy as long as I'm with her, but sometimes when I'm alone, I'll put on some gay porn, and jack off imagining that it's me that's sucking that dick in the video, and it makes me cum soo hard.