I have known since I was quite young that i had a real like for other males. At thirteen I sucked my first cock. In a bathroom stall in a public restroom at a mall, because I could not stop staring at the man beside me at the urinals. He asked me if I liked what I saw, and I nodded. No one was in there and he asked me to follow him into the stall. He took out his cock and asked me if I liked it. He grabbed my crotch and asked me if I liked that. He put his hand on my head and pushed me down until I was on my knees and he put his cock against my mouth and told me to suck. I opened my mouth and sucked him. Once I started I could not stop. I sucked him as best I could, but he had to face fuck me to cum.

He told me to meet him there the next saturday and he would show me something that I would really like. The next Saturday I waited for him and he came into the restroom when it was empty, except for us. He quickly took me into a stall, and asked me if I wanted to suck him. I said yes. I got down on my knees and he let down his zipper and pulled out his cock and I went for it, I couldn't get it all in my mouth. He let me suck him for a while, and then told me he had something better for me. He told me to pull my pants down, he played with my dick, which got hard the minute he touched it. He turned me around and told me that I was going to feel something cold, and he fingered my anus with lube, and he inserted his finger in me. He asked me if I liked it. Then he told me to lean over and stand still and he put his cock up against me and pushed in. It took a while, he pushed and pushed slowly. I felt like I had to poop, but the feeling was so good. He pushed until I could feel his balls against my bum, and then he started to stroke his movements as he fucked me. I had never felt something so good. He fucked me, and way too soon, he came in desperate jerks.

I met him many times after that, in many places he picked. He fucked me often, other times he had me suck him, and a few times he sucked me. Then one day when he was sixteen he stopped coming by, and I was left alone.

I started dating girls, and eventually had sex with a girl, and that led to getting married and having a family. I was a family man. I never stopped looking at boys, but I couldn't act on my urge. I found a girl at work, a small girl with a small bottom and I romanced her until she became my lover. And I was able to fuck her in the rear. Every time i fucked her, I would bend her over just like I used to bend over and I would fuck her ass just like he used to fuck my ass. Her bottom was small and white and if I didn't turn her around, she was just like a boy. I fucked her ass so many times, and every time I fantasized that I was fucking a boy.

Eventually, one trip I took to Chicago, I met a man on the plane and we were staying at the same hotel. We had drinks together, and then had dinner together, and then he invited me up to his room. He teased me and I teased back, and he peed and let me watch him and came over to me and asked me to kiss his cock. 'Come on big boy, suck my cock.' And I did, I sucked him and every bit of the memory of sucking cock when I was a kid came back, and I went for it with everything I could muster. I sucked his cock, like I wanted to be sucked. After a good while of sucking on him, and letting him grab my cock, he told me to undress which I did, I knew what he was going to do, he was going to do the same thing that I had done when I was thirteen. I surrendered my back to him, and just like before he lubed me up and he fucked me and he fucked me until he came inside of me. It had been so long, since I was sixteen that I had not been fucked, that I had not sucked a cock. I was overwhelmed with emotion and the feeling of something from so far away.

When I returned to my home, I did not go home. I went over to my girlfriends apartment and I fucked her hard in the ass, in the kitchen, against the counter. I didn't care if her kid saw us, I had to fuck her little white ass.