i still feel horrible about my friend being raped when i didnt do anything about it
ive been going out trying to get myself raped for punishment
a few days ago it worked
i did everything ive ever been told not to do
i walked alone thru a dark alley at nite, i had my hair in a ponytail, i was wearing skmpy clothes that were easy to get around, and when the guy asked me to help him out with something i walked right over
he tore my top open and broke my bra straps but he didnt have to do much with m y skirt
by when he was done i was too weak to fight back anyway
i struggled as much as i could when he put me in the dumpster and closed the latch
i dont know how long i was stuck in there. probably a couple of hours before someone opened it up to throw something out
so i was laying there on top of a bunch of trash bags cryong. all of me hurt. my arms hurt because he was holding them behind me. my face hurt because he kept slapping me when i made too much noise. my asshole hurt from being raped
i still dont think ive suffered enough to make up for what i did