Bi-Sexual Female / 18
I'm a normal teenage girl, I've slept with 6 people in total, 4 have been boyfriends, 1 friends with benefits and 1 one night stand.
The 6th guy is my current boyfriend, we have been together for about two and a half months now and everything is going great, he is sweet and caring and really likes me. Just one problem. I'm still head over heels in love with my ex (the guy I lost my virginity to), we broke up because he cheated on me with another girl who is now his girlfriend and has been since me and him broke up (approximately 9 months ago), I didn't see him for almost a year because I moved away for university and in the meantime slept with other guys to try and get over him and make myself feel better, but to no avail. I just ended up feeling slutty and easy, but I was going through a rough time and didn't know what to do.
Anyway my current knows about all the guys I've slept with and he also knows that I still have feelings for my ex (I didn't want to have a relationship where I lied), anyway I assured him that nothing would happen because my ex no longer has feelings for me and is in love with his current girlfriend, and we could never get back together because of what he did to me and how he is untouchable because he has slept with someone else. However, I'm still crazy about him and even fantasize about him while I'm having sex with my current boyfriend. I also compare the two (which I know you are not supposed to do) but I can't help it. My current is nothing like my ex (which .is actually a good thing because my ex is a dick) but I can't help having feelings for my first. Is this normal?? I want to get over him and be able to move on and have a great relationship with my current, but something is holding me back from being completely happy. I don't think I'm ever going to get over my first and I still feel the same way about him as I did when we broke up 9 months ago, I don't want to lose my current as he treats me so well and I know he cares about me deeply, but I don't want to hurt him by lying to him that I can be completely loyal and saying that me and ex have nothing anymore. What am I supposed to do??
The 6th guy is my current boyfriend, we have been together for about two and a half months now and everything is going great, he is sweet and caring and really likes me. Just one problem. I'm still head over heels in love with my ex (the guy I lost my virginity to), we broke up because he cheated on me with another girl who is now his girlfriend and has been since me and him broke up (approximately 9 months ago), I didn't see him for almost a year because I moved away for university and in the meantime slept with other guys to try and get over him and make myself feel better, but to no avail. I just ended up feeling slutty and easy, but I was going through a rough time and didn't know what to do.
Anyway my current knows about all the guys I've slept with and he also knows that I still have feelings for my ex (I didn't want to have a relationship where I lied), anyway I assured him that nothing would happen because my ex no longer has feelings for me and is in love with his current girlfriend, and we could never get back together because of what he did to me and how he is untouchable because he has slept with someone else. However, I'm still crazy about him and even fantasize about him while I'm having sex with my current boyfriend. I also compare the two (which I know you are not supposed to do) but I can't help it. My current is nothing like my ex (which .is actually a good thing because my ex is a dick) but I can't help having feelings for my first. Is this normal?? I want to get over him and be able to move on and have a great relationship with my current, but something is holding me back from being completely happy. I don't think I'm ever going to get over my first and I still feel the same way about him as I did when we broke up 9 months ago, I don't want to lose my current as he treats me so well and I know he cares about me deeply, but I don't want to hurt him by lying to him that I can be completely loyal and saying that me and ex have nothing anymore. What am I supposed to do??
