Hello I'm an Italian good looking girl living in UK so sorry for the English...honestly I'm just looking for an opinion here because I can't sleep any more... I had relationship before this one much longer and never happen to me something like that... I've been dating this 41 years old man for 4 months...we work together sometimes... I asked him to go out cause I think he would never do that...he's very reserved...it was just a sex relationship he didn't want a serious one cause maybe the age difference or cause of his past divorce...anyway amazing sex! with a commitment said by him not to have sexual affairs with any body else but anyway lately I've been asking too much from him so he left me and I took it very bad so now he won't reply to my text and he won't talk to me when we're at work...but I still can see somehow that he wants to have sex with me...the other day I sent him a text saying that after 3 months without sex it's getting harder for me...he didn't answer but that night he was on line on whatsapp at some weird time he never been before...so I thought he still thinking at me and that's driving me crazy cause I have to do something I feel like a maniac I can't stop myself cause I know I might have a chance and I'm really horny for him after 3 months of nothing and right after the summer he will leave the job and I won't see him any more. So I don't have nothing to lose. I thought the only solution is to wake up again that sexual will he had on me at the first...he really likes oral sex and me too I used to get really wet when I suck his cock and he was quite happy about it...anyway I thought to send him a text dirty sexy... Here it is: "I'm so hungry... I'd love to have your **** inside my mouth and suck it so hard and have your *** all over me... I can taste it... My ***** is getting wet just thinking about it... I'm so horny what about you????" I want to send it after we'll establish some talk at work...Honestly the more I read it the more I think it's too much to say... Am I a maniac??!... I can't sleep any more and this has to end... I thought even to go to his house and clarify things once for all...but I don't know how he would take it... What shall I do?? In the end I just want to have sex with him...