I've tried, and nothing has worked.
The feelings come and go, and I'm terrified- I don't think I can tell anyone about it, because I don't even know how I feel most of the time.
I need help.
If you've really wanted to comit suicide you'd have gotten it done, got off the pity wagon dumbshit.
Listen, the last place you're going to get a legitimate response is here. Call a suicide hotline or get in contact with mental health conselors to get real help.
yeah, get real help, the only help you'll get here is being told not to botch it.
Please get help. You can call a hotline and talk to someone. Or talk to a counselor. Anyone. Just please don't kill yourself.
Unless your name is Celine Dion ... fuck I hate that bitch.
Hmm... Ask a magic eight ball.
The others are right who said to find some real help. You have so many options that are better than suicide, but you probably don't see them. That is okay. Lots of people get there. I've been really close to there.
Find a counselor who can help you see a little clearer, and please DON'T give away what you have.
If you give this some time, you will be so glad that you did.