Ok.. so i am working for this fairly large company... with horrible offices policies... that most importantly ban mingling with fellow employees. So i come in do my job and go home... well that was the pattern until october 2008 when this guy caught my eye. so in january he asks me out to ihop we go; now while we are on the date i have to pick up 2 kids and let them hang until their parents are ready... and he pays for there dinner and we come back to my house... which i have 2 roomates and we wait for the freedom call.. ok their parents call.. we drop them off and go to the movies... at the movies we dont touch or anything.. and between here and the next date we have lunch and such... ok so we get to the 'dinner" date and we end up telling each other how attracted we are to each other and basically each other's apprenhension about dating... so as the weeks go on we hang out all the time( beach, movies, staying at my house) we never go to his house because his mother doesnt approve of me (i'm black, he's white) I DONT CARE.... so after a month we have our first kiss and then a week after that he tells me he loves me... now please understand that there are some emotional issues on both end.. but the connection here is undeniable... and i know i am in love with him(havent told him though)althoug i believe he knows).... and now the punch line.. so the 2 assholes i room with get into a fight and the male blacks the females eye and bust her lip but no one goes to the police because she 'LOVES' him so much and he was having a moment... ok fine i'm not on the lease and she would deny all charges so what is the next logical move... so the day after the incident he threats that i can either dump my now boyfriend and follow his command or i have 60 days to leave... and i say go to hell and he pushes me... now again im not on the lease( another story..) and have no other place to reside so i just barricade myself in the room and go to work the next day and inform my bf.... he immediately starts to look for somewhere for us to live... and i come back to the apartment and the abuser brought me a card and a rose?????!!!!!????... destroyed that and was told that i don't have to go... but i am leaving anyway... now back to the boyfriend so we are trying to build this relationship.. and naturally nature calls and he says no we will wait.... on the one hand i respect that but on the other hand each time he says no i feel rejected... and like he may not find me attractive enough.... and at this moment we are kinda not talking and i know he says he loves me... but here's my problem.. Ive never been loved by any man and now i have him and i literally don't know what to do to make this work... if you made it to the end of this post.... wheeeeeww!!! thank you and please leave your opinion...