I know I have near lost my mind, as I am maried to a beautiful woman and yet I can not seem to quit masturbating. Not just choking the chicken, but loving to tie off my nuts, massauging my breasts/nipples and ass to mouthing & back fucking my ass hole wildly deep w/all sorts of store bought & home made dong/ dildo like toys. Lately I have been secretly scoring meth &have been snorting up big rails which drives up my sensual erotic feelings & on which I go sexually insane with myself. Some of the things I have done are drinking my own anal & cock juices, fucked my ass w/shovel handles & 2" tow ball... Covered my body in mineral oil & other such lubes.... Pulling, tugging & purplishly tieing up my tortured balls & limp cock....