My husband is very insecure and possessive. We hardly ever have sex anymore and when we do I just lie there counting the seconds til it ends. I never have any time to myself between him and the kids. If we go to a party he maneuvers me into a corner and monopolizes me all night. We might as well have stayed home alone.

I have no adult human interaction with anyone but him. I grew up with a lot more male friends than female friends because I just get along better with guys but my husband is so insecure I can't even speak with a guy without him attached to my hip monitoring the conversation. I've reached the breaking point. Either I take the kids and move in with my mother or I find another way to stay sane.

For the first time ever, he's going to be out of town overnight tomorrow. I've already arranged for my sister to watch the kids. I am going to a restaurant/bar I used to hang at before I met my husband. It is a bit of a rough place. I'm going to dress slutty and I'm going to drink and I'm going to flirt with a few bad boys and I'm going to suck them off in the fucking parking lot. And if some cute guy really wants to fuck me, I just might let him do it!