I'll start when i was in the forth grade that's when I started to masturbate 'I known about sex for a long time having watched lesbian gay and straight porn when younger and doing things with my cousin only got as far as a quick peck on her pussy' but my friend's J. and C. we were talking about sex and masturbating when J. asked what about it do we like. Like do we like to just touch our dicks or think about someone else when doing it. He said his brother told him your gay if you like touching your self 'now i know he was teasing him saying that' but that's when i first started to think about it. Then some time after that maybe in fifth grade I had a my first wet dream about a girl Child movie star but having a dick instead of a pussy. After that I thought she was still hot and I don't care if she's got a dick or not I'd still would have sex with her if the chance came. So I started to think to my self "What if I'm gay??" I never even kissed anyone besides my cousin and it's not like I ever talked about what her and I did it was a secret and we know even when we did what we did that it was not right. So I made it my mission to find out what I want more a girl or a boy?? So I started to date a lot was getting close to my first kiss with this girl, but, my asshole friend C. lied to me and said she was cheating on me with him. Telling me that only because she really liked me but he was the ladies man in our grade and wanted to get with her on the rebound. So I freaked out like insanely freaked out on her and fucked every chance I'd ever have to even hold hands with someone. Then sixth, seventh, and eighth grade went by and nothing ever happened NOTHING.

But that summer going to high school was when my life changed not for the better in the long run but anyways my friends and I always hung out and smoke cigarettes and pot together. J. and C. lived closer to each other then I did to them but I was Always the one with the stuff or the money for it so they'd meet me somewhere in between and ride our bikes to C. house. He only lived with his mom, brother, and sister so it was chill over there. Well one night C. and I where at his place in his future car talking with J. over the phone. And we asked whats your darkest secret, well I know for sure now C. and I where lying I said the story about my cousin J. said he had a crush on some unpopular girl at school and C. said he'd caught his two friends form another town having gay sex and that they offered for him to join he told us he said no. The night went on and we went back inside and his brother was away with friends or something for the summer so just his younger sis and mom where there but they went to be so we watched movies and he passed out on the couch 'I think' and I was sure a this point in my life I was Bi. So i looked over and he was just wearing a T and boxers and i could see his cock though the hole and I just had to say in a very quiet whisper, "I want you so bad."

After a few days of being back at my house using a make-shift dildo I had for a few years C. calls me and invites me over. So I went and he asked if we wanted to sleep in the back yard in a tent so we could hand out and smoke freely if we wanted. I said yes and we set-up his tent and got blankets and pillows ready then went inside to watch a movie and eat dinner. Then after all that his mom and sis went to bed and C. and I started talking about sexual past. I had none and was always straight up about that with anyone who'd cared to ask so we started talking about fantasies instead. I said what any virgin would that I would just like to fuck someone and make out with them while I do it. He went into detail about what he'd do with one particular person. So after all this talk I was horny as hell thinking of my real fantasies with him. And then he grabbed his brothers box of condoms and said we should try them on and see if they would even fit. So we headed out to the tent, got in and got ready to try them on. I was still very hard and noticed my dick has never been this big but though I'm just extra horny thinking about this naked boy that was going to be next to me here soon. So he said to get hard and just try one one to see how it fits. And I couldn't even barely get it on it was to tight. So after breaking a few I got to one that did fit and C. then asked if we'd compare sizes being boys it was a normal thing. So we did and I had the bigger one mine was 6" and thick. His was 5.5" and had a upward curve to it he tried to argue his was bigger because the curve so I just was like whatever I'll agree don't want to start an argument. Then we started to talk about who can we call to come over and have sex with us. I thought for sure he'd have someone he claims he was a pimp with the ladies. But after some time no one answered, So I said being serious but making it seem like I could be joking, "Dude I'm so horny that your looking hot." And he said back to me, "are you serious??" Thinking he was joking I said, "Yeah." "No, are you serious??" he said again. And again I say 'Yes' he asked once more then I thought it's now or never so preparing my self to risk getting beat up I said Yes again. So then he Said, "OK, let me take a piss first. Get ready for when I come back." and out the tent he went. I instantly ripped the condom off because he had to, so he could pee. And he came back in and asked if i could move to his spot in the tent so he could us his right hand and after I did he reached under and stopped and we said, "what happens in the tent stays here." So he continued to inch his hand closer asking my how far it is from time to time and with my dick pointing straight up all he had to do was close his hand and he'd be jacking me off. Then he did very slowly at first but eventually went up to the most perfect speed. We both agreed we'd let the other know before cumming and after 2 minutes I was on the brink. I told him to stop not wanting to cum just yet and then it was my turn to give him one. I really thought I was dreaming so I immediately took his dick in my hand and after a few seconds I jumped up so I could use my right hand and have him rub me. After one minute not sure if this was real I told myself I'd better get this mouth to work before i wake. "Can I... try tasting it??" "Yes." he replied and without hesitating I went all the way down his dick using my tongue and twisting my head trying to copy all the porn I seen. OH it was so soooo good for me, I didn't even care if he'd suck me as long an i could whack it while i did him. But Feeling his cock throbbing he lifted my head and so gently set me down to taste my dick he to did not even waste a second and liked the pre-cum up and went on sucking. I had to make him stop three times because it was so good. Then he said that he wants to cum but before i let him I sucked him again. Then we both just whacked it till he came and I helped clean him up. We left the tent to go down the street to smoke a cig and both were giggling at what we just did. "After this lets get some food and finish you off." he said. We went inside and ate then he passed out. Me still being so horny I went back to the scene where it happened just 30 minutes ago to finish myself off, but passed out before i could.

The next day was the weirdest day ever since I was in the tent and he inside this caused confusion with everyone. We said nothing to each other for 4 days, and that's when I was strongly considering offing my-self because i thought it was my fault for the awkwardness that followed. But he called and asked if I wanted to go on a camping trip with his mom sis and him. And I cried right after because I knew it happen again. So after getting the OK from my parents I packed up and brought my dildo so we could try fucking this time.

Then that night I was to scared to make a move so I turned my back to him and waited for the right time. But he beat me there he reached over and rubbed my chest and asked if I wanted too. And he said it was my turn to go first, so I asked him if I could get my First ever kiss while I was pulling his pants off and he replied, "What like this." and put his hand on the side of my face and made out with me for a minute. Till he pushed my away and I started to suck him. But this time I Said, "Don't tell me when your going to cum I want to take it." But he to wanted this to last forever so when he was close he started to suck me off, then I wanted to 69 him for a while and we did. then remembering my TOY, I got it out and started to use it on my self and asked him if he could play with me for a while. He did, then i asked if he could try fucking me. But at first it hurt way to much so we stopped. And he offered me to fuck him and i was so ready to, he pointed his cute ass in the air and stuck it out perfect for my dick. I was about to fuck him then stopped and said, "I want this more then I want pussy a 1000x more, but I want your dick first since you gave me a hand-job first." "OK, you sure??" "Yes but first let me give you something special first." "What??" "Something you might not ever get with a girl." Then with his ass still in the air I put my head down and started to lick his cute tight little pink hole. Licking and moving down to give him a good suck too and going back up to licking. And when he was about to cum like that I took it all and swallowed every last drop. But that wasn't the end for him he still wanted to Fuck my ass. And he put all the pillows under my butt so i could lay on my back and jack-off for him while he fucked me. Then after I shoot my load he pulled out put his hand over my neck and squirted his second load on my face. Then came down on top of me so are dicks were rubbing together and was kissing me he looked into my eyes and said in the sweetest voice ever, "I Love You." We fucked four more times that night till 6A.M. when finally we fell asleep trying to get his fist in my butt and me trying to get four fingers in his.

We had lots more sex all summer long then both decided to stop, because the sex did ruin our friendship because we became lovers and we are Bi and want a family one day and thought it be better if we ended now. We talked about it for a long time about why we should stop and both TRULY do feel the same. It was Love, but with our love we knew it wouldn't work in long term. Wanting a family with both parents mother and father there for our kids. So on September 1, 2001 we kissed good bye. And still remained friends but never again would we sleep over and still talked about it for a while wondering if we made the right dissension till January 2002 we knew that life was not for us.

Let me end by saying we've recently talked about it and both agree that we still have fantasies about it and that we don't regret anything we did. C. I still love you but remember fate will do it's part to keep us together but it was lust that brought us to that point and loved followed. But everyone Love it's something no one who truly is in love can fully enplane but you just know.