I fancy my best female friend. I've told her but she doesn't like the idea of us being together as lovers... so we are still very good close friends and I appreciate what we have sooo much but also cannot get rid of these thoughts that we could get more out of what we have. To me it would add to our friendship - not replace it.

Once when we slept in a double bed I woke up and noticed she had her head close to my shoulder and I felt her warm breath against the skin on my shoulder and that was suuuuch a wonderful feeling. I just wanted to kiss her lips. But I know if i had done that she would get angry, and probably even cancel our friendship. Everytime i suggest that we become lovers she gets upset. So when i lay there i did nothing but imagine... i felt her warm breath on me and all I had to do was to lean in a bit towards her to kiss her..my mouth was just a few inches away from hers and her lips were slightly parted as she slept. Would she even notice?? the thought was tempting. And i couldn't help continuing this fantasy..first i would kiss her lips gently, to be careful not to awaken her or shock her...just press my lips against hers a little, no more than that and pull back...if she was still asleep i would do it again, a little kiss right on her lips. and if she still did not respond i would kiss her a third time, although this time a little more pressure while also moving my lips against hers, and maybe even let my tongue touch her lips...i would let my tongue stroke her lips and feel their softness and warmth. And surely then she would wake up! how would she react?? with shock?? anger?? or would she just open her eyes and lay still, without a word...maybe sighing...and after she looked me into my eyes for a while i would lean into her again but more slowly to allow her to respond, and kiss her another time...would she withdraw?? or lay still and let me kiss her?? this thought played in my head the whole time. and then i started fantasising further... i had this dream that without a word, she would let me kiss her and as i slip my tongue between her lips i suddenly would feel her tongue responding and the wet tips of our tongues would meet, pressing against each other so slowly and carefully, with a mixture of insecurity but also a hint of longing.

And then i would reach out with my hand and touch her breast so gently over her t-shirt, feel the curve of her soft smoothness...and i as i felt her nipple brush against my palm through the fabric, i would carefully give her breast a little squeeze..pressing against her while continuing to play with my tongue against hers. Still without any words, I would search her eyes for an answer..but i felt her body responding. Her nipple became slightly harder as i cupped my hand over her breast. Then i would stroke her down her belly and over her pajama pants..she would shift her body slightly to allow me closer to her, and as she would separate her legs slightly i would stroker her pussy on the outside of her pants, not rushing, just with slow careful movements, more like a slow massage..and i would feel her starting to writhe underneath my touch. All the time i would continue to kiss her...and then i would let my hand slip inside her pajama pants, feel her pubic hairs and then stroke her pussy further down where she would feel so warm. Soon i would feel her getting warmer and also a little wet and then i would withdraw my hand and slowly pull her pants down...she would still wear her t-shirt but now i could see through it how both her nipples were very stiff so i would kiss each one of them and suck them through the fabric. Now she was starting to moan so softly, almost as a sigh... and i continued to kiss her down her belly, still through her shirt, and even further down where her skin was naked, on her belly button and over her pubes and down to her pussy where i would stop for a while and look her into her eyes... "kiss me" she said in a soft dreamy voice, and i kissed her thighs close to her pussy but not quite touching her there yet...just teasing a little...but i could feel her warmth inviting me, begging me closer. "kiss me" she said again and this time i obeyed her and started kissing her clit and she started breathing heavily and i could see her breasts growing full as her chest heaved...and i cupped both my hands over them, squeezing them...i could smell her becoming more excited... she felt warm on my lips. so i started to lick her and she tasted wonderful! by now her whole body was starting to move in a slow rhythm together with her breathing and i tasted her juices and licked her pussy to make sure she felt good.


yes these were the thoughts i had as i lay there... but i dared not even kiss her. if she had known about my fantasy maybe she would have shouted at me and left me immediately... but what if she would like it as i had imagined?? i still dream of this...and in my dreams i let my fantasy continue...