I am normally a very quiet and patience person but over the years I have grown to physically hate a select few individuals who have been hellbent on trying to destroy me.

Most of my hatred is directed at the mother of my only child, after having my baby 8 years ago, she assumed that I wouldn't be a man and would end up walking away. How very wrong was she to make a fundamentally stupid assumption like that. I have fought for my child and now have a fantasic relationship but recent events have lead me to take the matter back to court but this time for sole residency.

My child is dumped with whoever will take her, normally her elderly maternal grandmother, the diet is terrible consisting of canned tuna most days, lack of discipline, child on a first name basis with mother, no telephone contact with my child when she is with the mother, constant threats of stopping contact with my child when I disagree, controlling behaviour, everything is so rigid but yet she is able to bend the rules whenever it suits.

My child is nothing more than a beautiful weapon that the mother regularly uses against me. She openly admits she hates me, and is stuck in the past, but when you ask the mother anything her standard reply is "I don't know"... things got noticably worse when she found out that I was engaged.

She is always saying how fearful she is of me but yet always brings my child to contact with me all alone. The best of this is that she has told the many so called professionals involved in the current court case that she believes that my child is NOT in any danger when with me and nor does she believe I am would hurt her. Now correct me if I am wrong but if any self-respecting mother, grandmother, woman, daughter, aunt, cousin or any female in general, if you yourself were so scared of someone would you allow for your child to be taken out of your care and into the persons that you are fearful of for whole weekend contact????

Most sane people would agree that these are not the actions of a concerned parent as your fears are often extended to your children especially when it is a fear of safety.

However, these bullshitting motherfucking so called professionals have swallowed the shit she has been selling and although I am not known to any local authority for violence or anything... I somehow I am in the wrong still and have been accused in an official report of being in denial... Denial of what, for soemthing that I have not done, for something that the first Judge said there is no evidence of domestic violence and that the claims of there being any were said in an attempt to diminish my character so I would not have access to my child.

The whole system is fucking worthless, being sent on a one day parenting course to learn what exactly, just that there turned out to be a room of people that were in the same situation as me. Even the trainers admitted that the course was pointless as it is for parents that had recently split up, not those already in the legal system for numerous years.

Rant kind of over but the battle continues still on other fronts...