Sorry -- this is not an erotic fantasy, its a total rant!!!

I just want to say that sometimes I really hate my husband. Sometimes he can be such a total prick. I blame this 100% on his fucked up parents and how they raised him. His dad was a prick and his mom did nothing. Still doesn't allows him to have fucking 10yr old like tantrums when he does not get his way, and pouts. Just makes me want to kick him in the balls.

I do everything for him literally and it ususally feels like he does not care. We both do well financially so I could easily leave his ass. However he is not always a total dick, probabl only 35% of tht time, but when it it, I find it the most annoying, vile, selfish act of someone who claims to be an adult and professional. Its all about him. He never wants to do anyting that I do, and I am too stupid to want to do things with out him. I deserve what I get. At one point in my life, did I finally decide that I (1) deseved to be treated this way and maladapt to this ridiculous situation, (2) trade a life of what could be happiness out there instead for a sure stream of grown ass man tantrums, (3) decide that I would rather live comfortably (again I make more than him), but together nice income, and I don't have to decide or struggle to think about if I can go on vacation, or purchase something. but the trade off is, again, the colossal prick of a husband. I love him but sometimes he acts like he could care less. Makes me think he is a cheater and a I am an ostrich with my head stuck in the sand hoping for a different outcome because my family was/is intact and his entire clan is a bunch of fucked up people that basically are all miserable and blame everyone else when something does not go their way. He was not always like this...as he has aged, he has become his parents. Its not a good thing.

Thank you for letting me vent.