Sorry -- this is not an erotic fantasy, it's a total rant!!!

Also, please be nice. This is my first time posting and I think I did it wrong a few minutes ago. Figures. Today sucks.

I just want to say that sometimes I really hate my husband. Sometimes he can be such a total prick. I blame this 100% on his fucked up parents and how they raised him. His dad was a prick and his mom did nothing. Still doesn't allows him to have fucking 10yr old like tantrums when he does not get his way, and pouts. Just makes me want to kick him in the balls.

I do everything for him literally and it usually feels like he does not care. We both do well financially so I could easily leave his ass. However he is not always a total dick, probably only 35% of the time, but when he does behave this way, I find it to be the most annoying, vile, and selfish act of someone who claims to be an adult and a professional. It's all about him. He never wants to do anything that I want do, and I am too stupid to want to do things without him. I am attractive and I should not have to do things (movies, concerts, dinners, etc...) without my husband. I believe that living separate lives is a precursor to marital problems such as infidelity and honestly, I am looker. He is too, in all fairness. I deserve what I get. At one point in my life, did I finally decide that I (1) deserved to be treated this way and maladapted to this ridiculous situation, (2) trade a life of what could be happiness out there instead for a sure stream of grown ass man tantrums, (3) decide that I would rather live comfortably (again I make more than him), but together nice income, and I don't have to decide or struggle to think about if I can go on vacation, or purchase something. but the tradeoff is, again, the colossal prick of a husband. I love him but sometimes he acts like he could care less. Makes me think he is a cheater and a I am an ostrich with my head stuck in the sand hoping for a different outcome because my family was/is intact and his entire clan is a bunch of fucked up people that basically are all miserable and blame everyone else when something does not go their way. He was not always like this...as he has aged, he has become his parents. It's not a good thing.

Thank you for letting me vent.