I must tell someone and get this off my chest.

My cousin is 4 years older and she had it all. her BF and she had an auto accident that screwed her up pretty bad. It took her years to recover enough to be on her own. In that time she cried and got depressed. told how he wanted nothing to do with her. Now thanks to her damage NO guy would want her. I had to take my shift and care for her. It was tough hearing this over and over. I kept telling her how good she looked and what she had to offer. Shocked me to find she was a virgin, but she was.

Being a virgin was a big problem for her, before guys hit on her all the time. After a trip to the mall she cried all the way home. Some guy made a statement and it hurt her. Was not about her, but she would not understand.

Took her home and helped her to bed. I kissed her and held her. She kissed me back and ask me to have sex with her. If I did not she never would. Finally I made the decision and we went at it. I got her cleaned up and me cleaned up after. Dr told she would not have children ever. So BC was not an issue.

For 6 months I made love to her every night. She got pretty good at it and she enjoyed it. I managed ot get her to orgasm the 3rd night. I did enjoy the feeling, but guilt worked on me. I had sex with my 1st cousin and taken her virginity.

few months later she was at therapy and found a BF. he had injury and thought he would never had a women. I guess I did not do to bad and she is now happy. She told me the sex we had made it possible to enjoy sex with him.

I guess I can forgive my self.