I had a very twisted crush on a boy when I was a child. I acted very strangely towards him. I kept a small book detailing all his likes and dislikes and questioned him as if I were interviewing him. I kept a discarded band-aide wrapper he threw away. I traded pokemon cards with him and even after finding out he gypped me I didn't say anything and instead giggled. If he said he had a crush on a celebrity I would suddenly declare my hatred of her. He was holding a baby girl and I got angry. I was jealous. Yes, seriously. I would do all that and yet at the same time insult him and deny I liked him to the point I said I'd sooner go lesbian. I gave him a card and instead of writing I love you I wrote I dont hate you. I was just a kid. I was a bitchy little kid. Is it just me who treated my first crush like absolute dog shit while at the same time acting like a jealous banshee from hell?? When I think about it now I dont understand why I did what I did.