he told me to so I got on top of him and I fucking dry humped him til we both came several times over a 10 year period and I was only 6 and he fiddled me up and I wet my pants and orgasmed and I did that too with my cousins, when they did those things to me. I was having multiple orgasms young. 11 is the highest I have gone so I don't know if that is high or low on the scale.

I let him put his fingers in my pants and around my c**t because I was stupid.

I wanked him off til he came as well, many times. I guess occasionally I liked the feeling but most of the time I hated it with him like I didn't like it with the man who raped me. thankgod too, I orgasmed once the whole time out of a hand full of times we were together.

I wanted a hot guy to take me out and fuck me like made. but I hate my sexual self. I want to look thin and beautiful to enjoy sex more. I want to be dated or courted and fucked by a hot guy who really wants me and I want him.

does that really happen?? I don't know.

I am just used to doing it for money with the old man I was with as a child, but I don't want to do that, but I would in a fantasy I guess.
I have never fantasied about being a prostitute ever, but more the pretty girl who gets the cute guy or I just feel ugly by being abused by mr wrong threatening beast.