katy used to say to me "I am your evil twin" and "I need to get into your head" and tried to run me over worse that louise played that game when I was a kid.

I have had a few evil twins, Diana and louise as a child, and then my sister and katy.

wait til you experience an evil twin... "there is no way they could have made two...your the only one.. the only one...!"

that is why I like a guy who makes a play for me without all the party crap now. If I had to live that out again I don't know how I would cope, I would like to in a way ... get that easter weekend out of me... but with me winning the guy cuz I am sick of being the loser. I don't know if it could work. if I was invited to someones place for a party ... I don't know if I would go now.

I like to stay at home now and just watch videos of my favorite actors and read or shop.


I do want to mix with people and make friends, but can I cope with rejection and heart break again???? I feel very small right now with my health etc.