Over the last several months I've noticed that I want sex almost all the time. I'm a single widow of 5 years. My late husband had a very powerful sex drive and I would accommodate him when ever he was in the mood. He was a wonderful lover always made sure I was pleased. We had sex 2 or 3 times a week and it was wonderful. I have a male friend now that does include benefits, and we also have sex 2 or 3 times a week. The problem is, I want more sex. I have talked with my friend and he is good with 2 to 3 times a week and does not seek any more sex.

I've taken to masturbating several times a week, even on days there I will be getting sex with my friend. My clit and labia seem to be more sensitive and feels wonderful to play with. I've really started to enjoy holding my clit between my thumb and finger and rolling it. It's fantastic feeling and I can feel it swelling and gets large like a baby penis. It's not like I have a cock, but when it swells up, it feels wonderful to roll between my fingers and to pull on it. For years I've orgasmed from rubbing, and sometimes slapping my clit and labia. Now I almost always rub and pull my clit with my fingers to make myself orgasm.

I told my friend how I liked it, and he told me "That's not normal." Women should rub, guys jack-off. I don't know if that is what you would call it when a woman plays with her clit like that, but if it's jacking off, then yes, I like to jack-off even if it's not normal.

I strip and lay on my bed and play with my breasts and nipples until I feel it starting to grow. By then I'm very wet. I rub a little to make sure it's really swollen, then I take it between my fingers and jack-off. Two or three orgasms in rapid succession are not uncommon, and I really love squeezing it between my fingers as I start orgasming, it makes my pleasure much more intense.

Since my friend has called it jacking-off and told me it was strange, I've started to actually have thoughts of doing this with other women and wonder if I'm just strange like my friend says or if other women enjoy it too. I've never been with another woman before, but I think I would like to have a mutual jack-off session, where I would jack her off and she would do the same to me.

When I think this way it makes me even more sexually aroused, and after jacking off, I feel strange like I am not normal any more. I love the feeling and the intensity of my orgasms when I jack off, so I am going to keep on doing it, but would love to hear from other women if thy think it's not normal. If you've tried it, then did you like it?? And I guess the real burning question is do you think another woman would be interested??