Last weekend we all went out as a group, me , Jamie, Kali, Dave and Jasper. fortunately night came quickly and it was chilly dave was flirty with me, so I thought he liked me, so we rocked up at a club getting out of the cold at least. next thing I know after a few rums and cola we were really in a party mode. Kali accidently tripped on a chair and slipped her drink (unfortunately, but made me see her in a more sexier light really and I am a girl). she said "oh fee I'm sorry I wet your shirt, oh look at me I look like I wet my pants" and went to the bathrooms.

we partied for a while usual crowd, with unusual hair God I love this new vampy thuggy punk movement, somehow they make me feel better about myself. so freaky and cool. I wish I was more punky and heartless as they are.

dave drove home which was a good thing because the others had plenty drunk. I was moving on to toxic.

we got in and sat on the floor and was gonna play some videos and music and Jasper threw out some cards hiden under the sofa.

Jamie pored a few more drinks out for all of us, by now dave had just one to cool off the edge by we were all a bit whispy by now.

I was pretty upset having been broken hearted from my boyfriend who dumped me for a foxy violent latex so I took up with a older man for a short time just as a buffer relationship that was nothing more then hold each other and consoling each others sorrows are heart break.

I was pretty desperate for sex and feeling so low and lost inside myself, what happened next was embarrassing. I was face down on the floor crying in a drunken fit, and kali and jasper were getting into passionate kissing. maybe that was what made me feel upset really she seems to get sex so cheap all the time. I was feeling down and out. Jamie is bi and I was noticing him and dave starting to touch each other as if they were having a secret relationship. I don't know how it happened but we were all rolling around the floor.

my head was banging. I was feeling left out and dejected. how did we get into this kissing and touching. then I was on my hands and knees I am just the dog I thought. and Jamie was pointing to dave about my ass. and telling him to jump on it. I sat on daves knee drunk he was bouncing me saying "oh bouncy baby" holding my legs and rubbing his cheek against my cheek and ear, then I don't know what happened but I just felt so drunk and horny, and peed over his lap. then he was like "oh god she just pissed all over me" with a laugh rubbing his legs with my pee was such a turn on, fuck I think it turned him on, I hope it did as much ads it did to me. He wiped my wet legs and ass with my hot pee. so anyway dave was on top of me holding me copying dog style. and it felt nice him just holding me. the others were trying to make something more of it, cheering on for us to fuck, anyhows that ended with him saying "are you ok " ... I wanted him to fuck me doggy style right then and there, but I resisted. they could all see I was pretty dam pissed and drunk by now. dave told them to leave the room. I sat on the floor crying sitting in my pee like a dog. he asked me if I was ok. I thought I was going to die, chocking on my breath. feeling faint and weak. he helped me up and helped me to walk, I got up went to the bathroom and cleaned myself up as I swayed down the hall. we I came back the others were back Jamie was cleaning up the pee floor. then we turned the music down and cleared empty glasses. I told dave I was sorry for being such a mess, and went to bed. they all sat up but kali and jasper were really meshing with each other that night. what did I do?? now I feel rotten, and have to face them all at the club tonight...Jamie just rang me to ask me out, I am wondering if Jamie wants dave or if dave is just playing games or does he want Jamie or me...