I am married, been with the same man since I was 18. I am unhappy. And I can't verbalize why.

Mock me at will. I deserve it.

I am bisexual. I've never said that out loud to anyone. I might be a lesbian, to tell the truth. Not that my insane brain would give me the time to think about it.

I'm a fucking mess.

I can't handle it.

I'm not suicidal... too much of a chicken.

I'm terrified of death.

I'm terrified of children, even though I want them.

I'm terrified of change.

I don't know how to handle life.

I'm so lonely.

Help me.