I am a female who started thinking sexual thoughts about other women about two years ago. I know I should just wait for college to experiment like everyone else, but I don't want to wait that long, and besides I think about older women way more than girls my age. I'm a "good girl", quiet, I make good grades, I'm cute and I get hit on a lot but I don't respond, I'm just not that interested. None of my friends would ever think I was doing what I've been doing, and I'm sure not telling them.

I started looking at women in public and picturing what their pussies looked like. Not even necessarily the pretty ones, just ordinary women. That moved on to thinking about what it would be like to give them oral sex. It became my biggest fantasy, to take a total stranger into a public bathroom or alleyway and eat her out. I started trying to do it.

I live in a city, so I would always go way out of my way on the bus to where no one could possible know me. There were a lot of false starts, where I would chicken out. In a grocery store there was a woman who looked like a mom in her late 30's. I pictured being on my knees in a bathroom stall pulling down her panties with my mouth, and her stepping forward, cupping the back of my head and pushing her hairy pussy into my face. I followed her, my heart pounding loudly in my chest. I thought I would chicken out again, but then no one was around, and feeling like I was stepping off a cliff I softly said "excuse me", then looked her in the eyes, made the v sign over my mouth and wiggled my tongue. She made a noise and left in a hurry. My face went red, I was so embarrassed. But then I realized I would never see her again, and I laughed and felt giddy, my head rushing. That was *fun*! I've tried it 5 times since, and its been easier each time. No takers. But I'm young and cute, and it has to work eventually. Maybe I'll realize what a terrible idea it is and stop. But it sure is a rush.