i've rarely been out since college. when i do go out now, it's usually with a group of friends from work, and we'll all go out for drinks. i usually end up going home early because i don't drink, so i don't fit in to the silliness.

it's been a while since i've had sex with another person. i don't really masturbate either, when i do it feels good, but then i start feeling guilty and depressed because nobody wants me.

today i'm starting a plan to help my self esteem. i am trying to be a more positive person. i start every day by looking myself in the mirror and telling me that i am a worthwhile and beautiful person. i stand there looking at myself and pick out the good things. i'm 5' 6" tall, long brown hair, hazel eyes, 36b-23-34.

maybe i do look good, i have soft facial features, my lips are good, and my nose is kinda cute. i am a worthwhile person.

i think i'll wear a skirt and blouse today. simple, black, just above my knee... that's the one. my teal blouse... stockings... and 3 inch black pumps. yes, i look good today.

no perfume, against the rules at work... but some makeup and a bit of liner, shadow, and a light shade of lipstick. now i feel businessy.

thank you for reading my ramblings, i am going to be a good person. one worthwhile and hopefully someone will notice.